that'd be awesome to babysit his sister. where is HE at the moment anyways?
and sweetheart, i promise you i know what you're talking about with high school and friends. did you not know me last year? i was the exact same way. anyone that i had spent my frosh/soph year being friends with no longer cared. and, its impossibly difficult to make new friends your senior year. unless you're new, because then you're cool. ask me how many dances i went to: one. how many bonfires? none. football games? very few (and thats only because we were actually good, not the social aspect). what was my senior year spent doing? school work, and busting my butt so i could get out of there. college is amazing. you dont have the social aspect of school at all. i didnt think last year was too bad, but mainly because i didnt associate with anyone from school. yes, i talked to you occasionally during fourth hour. and christene in spanish, and amber after. but (now dont get me wrong but i'm sure you know what i mean), it was lacking. those true friends where you hang out all the time. between classes, after school on half days, and all through the weekend. just hang in there love, you'll make it through. i promise before you know it you'll be sitting in those chairs at graduation. thinking "what have i spent my last year doing?" but, if youre anything like me, there will be no regrets. sure, i didnt have that many friends (or really any at school), and i was just itching to get out and be done for days and days. but, that was me. it was who i was/still am. the decisions i made i no longer made for everyone else, but for myself. and i'll tell you, that's the first time ive done that. and it was incredible.
just hang in there, you're [plenty] strong. and youve got a boyfriend who cares so much about you. you'll come out on top, higher than all the rest of the people, because you're you, and you didnt lower yourself to be like all the rest of them.
i love you little sis, and i'm always here if you ever ever ever ever ever (and i mean that) need anything.
HE is in Cortez, Colorado. HE's not allowd back in the state of AZ until the sister is 18. And when he turns 18, his dad wants to send him to the service. aka go to war and hopefully die. =) totally kidding. but yeah. Thank you seriously for all of this. You have no idea how much it meant. Today has been a really shitty day, and to read this comment, as well as the one belows oh man, seriously. I was thinking the same thing about the bonfire and homecoming bullcrap and then I read this as reassurance that I can do it... Like you said Im plenty strong. =P And yeah, my boyfriend is more than anyone could ever, hope, wish or dream for. And I have awesome people like you, that I dont need to spend every hour of every day with that love and care for me as much as you do. Karis, you're amazing. I miss you. I love you more than ya know. And same goes to you concerning the needing me thing... it's nice to know I have someone to turn to. <3 Love you ALWAYS!
and sweetheart, i promise you i know what you're talking about with high school and friends. did you not know me last year? i was the exact same way. anyone that i had spent my frosh/soph year being friends with no longer cared. and, its impossibly difficult to make new friends your senior year. unless you're new, because then you're cool. ask me how many dances i went to: one. how many bonfires? none. football games? very few (and thats only because we were actually good, not the social aspect). what was my senior year spent doing? school work, and busting my butt so i could get out of there.
college is amazing. you dont have the social aspect of school at all. i didnt think last year was too bad, but mainly because i didnt associate with anyone from school. yes, i talked to you occasionally during fourth hour. and christene in spanish, and amber after. but (now dont get me wrong but i'm sure you know what i mean), it was lacking. those true friends where you hang out all the time. between classes, after school on half days, and all through the weekend.
just hang in there love, you'll make it through. i promise before you know it you'll be sitting in those chairs at graduation. thinking "what have i spent my last year doing?" but, if youre anything like me, there will be no regrets. sure, i didnt have that many friends (or really any at school), and i was just itching to get out and be done for days and days. but, that was me. it was who i was/still am. the decisions i made i no longer made for everyone else, but for myself. and i'll tell you, that's the first time ive done that. and it was incredible.
just hang in there, you're [plenty] strong. and youve got a boyfriend who cares so much about you. you'll come out on top, higher than all the rest of the people, because you're you, and you didnt lower yourself to be like all the rest of them.
i love you little sis, and i'm always here if you ever ever ever ever ever (and i mean that) need anything.
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Thank you seriously for all of this. You have no idea how much it meant. Today has been a really shitty day, and to read this comment, as well as the one belows oh man, seriously. I was thinking the same thing about the bonfire and homecoming bullcrap and then I read this as reassurance that I can do it... Like you said Im plenty strong. =P And yeah, my boyfriend is more than anyone could ever, hope, wish or dream for. And I have awesome people like you, that I dont need to spend every hour of every day with that love and care for me as much as you do. Karis, you're amazing. I miss you. I love you more than ya know. And same goes to you concerning the needing me thing... it's nice to know I have someone to turn to. <3 Love you ALWAYS!
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