Time and Change
Dear Live Journal,
I love this journal because I only write in it once every........ ..never, ok so once every 37 weeks.
Change for the most part takes a gradual form meaning, a lot of time in order to see and feel change. The majority of my entries reflect a lot of change because of the distance in between each entry.
Thinking about my last entry; I was a man-whore, a drunk, starting to smoke, going out every night, trying out new and newer things until BANG! I almost killed myself, seriously I really thought I died. And then a couple of weeks later BAM! I almost died again. Each time I was really really lucky to make it out alive. Each time makes for a great story, but I would not ever like to go through them again.
So back to being a WHORE/SLUT/Prostitute/get into your pants master. I was an asshole, the asshole.
I had a network of girls that I was leading on of about 8 girls and they all thought that they were going to end up being my girlfriend......ha! Poor them, poor me. In reality I was just searching and searching very hard for someone that I once loved and completely lost.
My first true love that I took for granted and frankly threw away, that lovely lady from tallahassee, I still miss her, I still love her, but it wasn't meant to work out, the timing was off, the distance was too long and I tried, we tried to hold on too long. A friend of mine sent her a message and with that message every tie that we ever had evaporated into nothing and for the last 6 months I havent spoken, seen, heard of, or had any news of that lovely lady from tallahassee. Sigh. If that message wasn't delivered I would have not moved on, so to that friend I thank.
So I moved on to being a MAN-WHORE, and then I got tired, to the point that I went 30 days without even trying to sweet talk any girl and I dropped every girl that was in my network of girls. I thought..... "I am never getting in a relationship, all these girls are immature and just cant keep up." And then a lovely lady from miami came along and shut me up. she is 3.5 years older than me and very smart, great sense of style, dances like she doesn't give a FUCK and she drives me crazy. So now I am something I have not been in a long time, a committed boyfriend, lol who would have thought.
Aside from love I am also experimenting with starting 3 new business ventures(Greek Store, C.E., Boot Camp), looking to do an internship in the summer at Washington D.C., climbing Mt. St. Helens, I am the President of my fraternity, seeing my GPA rise and I am going to take the LSAT and go to Law School. Take the GMAT and get an M.B.A. as well. Going to graduate fall '07. Lets see waht else....... Oh shit I live on my own, yeah living alone no parents and a lot of bills, its awesome.
Lovingly,
J. Coloma
P.S. For sure going to dedicate my life to business and politics.
I love this journal because I only write in it once every........ ..never, ok so once every 37 weeks.
Change for the most part takes a gradual form meaning, a lot of time in order to see and feel change. The majority of my entries reflect a lot of change because of the distance in between each entry.
Thinking about my last entry; I was a man-whore, a drunk, starting to smoke, going out every night, trying out new and newer things until BANG! I almost killed myself, seriously I really thought I died. And then a couple of weeks later BAM! I almost died again. Each time I was really really lucky to make it out alive. Each time makes for a great story, but I would not ever like to go through them again.
So back to being a WHORE/SLUT/Prostitute/get into your pants master. I was an asshole, the asshole.
I had a network of girls that I was leading on of about 8 girls and they all thought that they were going to end up being my girlfriend......ha! Poor them, poor me. In reality I was just searching and searching very hard for someone that I once loved and completely lost.
My first true love that I took for granted and frankly threw away, that lovely lady from tallahassee, I still miss her, I still love her, but it wasn't meant to work out, the timing was off, the distance was too long and I tried, we tried to hold on too long. A friend of mine sent her a message and with that message every tie that we ever had evaporated into nothing and for the last 6 months I havent spoken, seen, heard of, or had any news of that lovely lady from tallahassee. Sigh. If that message wasn't delivered I would have not moved on, so to that friend I thank.
So I moved on to being a MAN-WHORE, and then I got tired, to the point that I went 30 days without even trying to sweet talk any girl and I dropped every girl that was in my network of girls. I thought..... "I am never getting in a relationship, all these girls are immature and just cant keep up." And then a lovely lady from miami came along and shut me up. she is 3.5 years older than me and very smart, great sense of style, dances like she doesn't give a FUCK and she drives me crazy. So now I am something I have not been in a long time, a committed boyfriend, lol who would have thought.
Aside from love I am also experimenting with starting 3 new business ventures(Greek Store, C.E., Boot Camp), looking to do an internship in the summer at Washington D.C., climbing Mt. St. Helens, I am the President of my fraternity, seeing my GPA rise and I am going to take the LSAT and go to Law School. Take the GMAT and get an M.B.A. as well. Going to graduate fall '07. Lets see waht else....... Oh shit I live on my own, yeah living alone no parents and a lot of bills, its awesome.
Lovingly,
J. Coloma
P.S. For sure going to dedicate my life to business and politics.