Sep 14, 2005 12:21
Women from my earliest recollection of what a girlfriend is like are in their purest of states (that is when they have not been harmed by disillution and heart break) tender, loving, caring, even mother-like. Men on the other hand feel the need to have more that one woman being there for them. Once we mess things up we find ourselves clawing to the walls trying to remember how to make her fall in love again.trying to remember what it was like to feel our woman around our arms, her scent, her kiss, her eyes or the little freckle in that unknown spot only you know about. Then comes some time of misery and the you buckle your belt tight and move on with the ever so popular excuse "there are plenty of fish in the sea or something like that" well everytime you do that your "net" gets smaller and smaller the chance of catching that one fish you had many times before is getting slimmer and slimmer. It is so hard for us to understand to hold on to a good thing it is in our nature to let go and find something better when truly the first one you had was all you will ever look for again.
I am very sorry for all the girls I have hurt throughout my years of life. THey say true sorrow changes behavior, but really I dont think my behavior will ever change, I dont think I will ever stop hurting girls, I think though that one day my belt will be so tight I will gasp for air and that day my nature will change its course. (For now my belt is pretty lose maybe this explains the reason why men get bigger waists as time goes by. Ever hear your dad say "I remember when I used to be a 32" now I am a 42")
OH god I started writing this entry with the intention of showing myself and repenting for all the stupid things I've made, but I end up saying that I will continue to do them and I'll go to the gym and make sure my waist stays at a size 30" ;)
DOnt get your heart broken, Coloma
oh huge party at vision this thursday night, and friday night an even bigger party at gracies grill
EVERYTHING IS FREE! I'LL HOOK YOU UP.
ask lugo I hooked her up with richie the other night. :) :) :) lol (I am such an asshole)
PARTY HARD, STUDY HARD