it hurts
its been 24 hours since i found out that Bear was gone. this has easily been the worst day of my life. i have been trying to keep myself busy with work and reading all the wonderful messages that my friends and loved ones have been sending me. we still have yet to find out what caused his sudden departure...and some part of me doesn't want to know. i am afraid that it will be from something that could have been prevented had someone been present. i miss him. my home isn't complete anymore and i really doubt that any amount of time will heal this wound. i still lack the energy to write but i will be posting more tomorrow when i have a better grip on what i want to say.