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I somehow feel obligated to post. I really don't have much to post about, but I have this great need to do it.
Monika left yesterday for a week back in PA. I was so worried she'd go home and not want to come back to NC. Lucky for me, we've talked several times already. I have nothing to worry about. It's funny that we haven't lived together for 6 years, but she can move down here and we're the same as always, double trouble. You see, I feel very lucky to have her. Throughout the past 10 years or so, we're all that each other has had. We've shared shoulders to cry on, more crazy times than one can imagine and have been through every struggle imaginable. If we wrote a book, it would be titled something like "Dealing with Life: Two Sisters Who Have Been Through It All." I guess that's why people feel so open about talking with us about anything. We listen and offer gentle advice.
I just found out this morning I'm being switched into a different sunday school room at church. It kills me that I found out at the end of church and didn't get to say anything to my kids. They'll be crushed. Apparently, I'm such a hit that all the kids talk about me all week long. Some days I wonder if why I'm working where I'm working. I should be with children. I relate to them. Probably because of the shitty childhood I had myself. Gosh, our family put on such a great facade. People still don't believe that I went through all that I did. Who knew the Kemp family were such good actors?
Julia moves out this week. Amber moves in. Change is good and needed. Amber is going to be working at the church with us too. Lately I feel like life is an out of body experience. I'm watching myself go through the motions, but I'm not really experiencing anything. I'm stuck. Hopefully I'll be in a better position in a month or two.
Monika left yesterday for a week back in PA. I was so worried she'd go home and not want to come back to NC. Lucky for me, we've talked several times already. I have nothing to worry about. It's funny that we haven't lived together for 6 years, but she can move down here and we're the same as always, double trouble. You see, I feel very lucky to have her. Throughout the past 10 years or so, we're all that each other has had. We've shared shoulders to cry on, more crazy times than one can imagine and have been through every struggle imaginable. If we wrote a book, it would be titled something like "Dealing with Life: Two Sisters Who Have Been Through It All." I guess that's why people feel so open about talking with us about anything. We listen and offer gentle advice.
I just found out this morning I'm being switched into a different sunday school room at church. It kills me that I found out at the end of church and didn't get to say anything to my kids. They'll be crushed. Apparently, I'm such a hit that all the kids talk about me all week long. Some days I wonder if why I'm working where I'm working. I should be with children. I relate to them. Probably because of the shitty childhood I had myself. Gosh, our family put on such a great facade. People still don't believe that I went through all that I did. Who knew the Kemp family were such good actors?
Julia moves out this week. Amber moves in. Change is good and needed. Amber is going to be working at the church with us too. Lately I feel like life is an out of body experience. I'm watching myself go through the motions, but I'm not really experiencing anything. I'm stuck. Hopefully I'll be in a better position in a month or two.