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Have you ever for no actual reason gotten really depressed? Like a strange accumulation of things just wears you down and out. Everything you say somes out wrong. You mean to talk in a way to share your feelings and thoughts and all u get is called a bitch and selfish. The only thing you really want is the respect and privacy that you give others. Just the love of knowing that your not alone and the people around you aren't there to take advantage of you. I just want to be like it used to. I feel locked up, stuck, and alone all at the same time. Yea I have more amterial stuff but I don't get to enjoy it like I want to whenever I want to. Everything I have is shared. Nothing I have belongs solely to me, nothing. It hurts. I feel often like im being taken advantage of again and used for being nice. So I become a bitch. I don't want to be a bitch I just really feel that way. I don't know how else to explain anything. Just sometime you feel like your getting shafted.