Since the entry before last, I have...
-moved back to Western MA to live with my parents
-changed my mind a million times about what I want to be
-quit a temp job that made me miserable
-lasted 4 days working for a gas station
-become a substitute teacher
-become a sales associate at Old Navy
-worked my first black friday in retail
-interacted with all kinds of interesting people, co-workers and customers alike
-wanted to become a high school teacher
-taken the first part of the Massachusetts teacher's test
-attended Westfield State College for one day, then withdrew
-decided I wasn't going to settle for anything less than my PhD in English
-set my sights on Harvard, but will also be applying to: Yale, Columbia, Tufts, BU, BC, possibly Brandeis and UMaryland. I'm sure this list will grow and change.
-started paying back ridiculous amounts each month in student loan bills
-applied for jobs that will actually pay my bills and help me not worry (this is recent)
- broken things off with a guy who didn't deserve me
- learned that sex is only good when youre both totally into it
- discovered the enormous extent of my self-worth
- fallen in love with a guy who might deserve me
- smiled and laughed in the dark corners of Irish pubs (in Boston)
- taken the entire evening to roam about the city and talk candidly about everything in life
- confessed feelings after a ridiculously long period of time holding them in
- been told that the timing is wrong now, but someday
- informed him that I dont wait around, but that we should see what happens
- remained his friend :)
- tried internet dating
- met a guy who is married... to his work.
- been sexually adventurous
- decided I need someone in my life who is going to be more into people than computers
- boldly asked one of my managers at work out for drinks (it never happened, but it was bold!)
- stood my ground on saying no
- started talking to this nice guy who's in grad school at UCONN
- learned how to take a chill pill in terms of relationships
- felt content with being single for the time being - come what may
- decided that I was done being fat and feeling horrible about myself
- lost approx 17 pounds from a specific starting weight (bringing me to approx 30 pounds under my highest weight)
- weighed less than I had since my second year of college
- bought smaller jeans
- started formulating a strict and rigorous training regimen for the gym
- set the goal of losing 89 pounds in 2010 (85.8 to go! January WASNT my month, but February will be!)
- decided to run a 5K sometime in 2010
- joined the YMCA (just today!!)
- tracked my food intake
- struggled with my self-image
- thought I was beautiful
- fallen off the wagon
- dusted myself off and jumped back on
- made a commitment to myself and my health
- drained my bank account
- racked up credit card debt
- almost purchased a new car, but got scared of the payments and didn't follow through with the decision
- stressed out about money
- missed Residence Life
- missed college immensely
- been depressed
- been elated
- visited friends
- lost touch with friends
- discovered who my true friends are
- found the beat of a song/learned how to dance at 2am on the back porch of a 2nd floor apartment in Cambridge
- missed people from my past
- reached out to mend wrongs from years past
- forgiven others
- forgiven myself
- learned that it's okay to quit
- learned how to cook
- bought a book called The Happy Book, and started filling it out (EVERYONE SHOULD DO THIS!!)
- discovered the simple pleasures of a great coffee shop and an excellent book or a fantastic friend
- started to see the glass as half-full
- learned that happiness is what it's all about
- gained loads of confidence
- started buying colorful clothes that make me feel cute
- become obsessed with accessories (scarves and earrings, mostly)
- started to wear makeup
- become aware that we all have a long way to go
- stopped being jealous of people who I have perceived to be more successful than I am - everyone has their own challenges
- discovered that looking forward is more important than looking back
- embraced life
I'll try to be here more often. 2010 is gonna be one hell of a trip.
-changed my mind a million times about what I want to be
-quit a temp job that made me miserable
-lasted 4 days working for a gas station
-become a substitute teacher
-become a sales associate at Old Navy
-worked my first black friday in retail
-interacted with all kinds of interesting people, co-workers and customers alike
-wanted to become a high school teacher
-taken the first part of the Massachusetts teacher's test
-attended Westfield State College for one day, then withdrew
-decided I wasn't going to settle for anything less than my PhD in English
-set my sights on Harvard, but will also be applying to: Yale, Columbia, Tufts, BU, BC, possibly Brandeis and UMaryland. I'm sure this list will grow and change.
-started paying back ridiculous amounts each month in student loan bills
-applied for jobs that will actually pay my bills and help me not worry (this is recent)
- broken things off with a guy who didn't deserve me
- learned that sex is only good when youre both totally into it
- discovered the enormous extent of my self-worth
- fallen in love with a guy who might deserve me
- smiled and laughed in the dark corners of Irish pubs (in Boston)
- taken the entire evening to roam about the city and talk candidly about everything in life
- confessed feelings after a ridiculously long period of time holding them in
- been told that the timing is wrong now, but someday
- informed him that I dont wait around, but that we should see what happens
- remained his friend :)
- tried internet dating
- met a guy who is married... to his work.
- been sexually adventurous
- decided I need someone in my life who is going to be more into people than computers
- boldly asked one of my managers at work out for drinks (it never happened, but it was bold!)
- stood my ground on saying no
- started talking to this nice guy who's in grad school at UCONN
- learned how to take a chill pill in terms of relationships
- felt content with being single for the time being - come what may
- decided that I was done being fat and feeling horrible about myself
- lost approx 17 pounds from a specific starting weight (bringing me to approx 30 pounds under my highest weight)
- weighed less than I had since my second year of college
- bought smaller jeans
- started formulating a strict and rigorous training regimen for the gym
- set the goal of losing 89 pounds in 2010 (85.8 to go! January WASNT my month, but February will be!)
- decided to run a 5K sometime in 2010
- joined the YMCA (just today!!)
- tracked my food intake
- struggled with my self-image
- thought I was beautiful
- fallen off the wagon
- dusted myself off and jumped back on
- made a commitment to myself and my health
- drained my bank account
- racked up credit card debt
- almost purchased a new car, but got scared of the payments and didn't follow through with the decision
- stressed out about money
- missed Residence Life
- missed college immensely
- been depressed
- been elated
- visited friends
- lost touch with friends
- discovered who my true friends are
- found the beat of a song/learned how to dance at 2am on the back porch of a 2nd floor apartment in Cambridge
- missed people from my past
- reached out to mend wrongs from years past
- forgiven others
- forgiven myself
- learned that it's okay to quit
- learned how to cook
- bought a book called The Happy Book, and started filling it out (EVERYONE SHOULD DO THIS!!)
- discovered the simple pleasures of a great coffee shop and an excellent book or a fantastic friend
- started to see the glass as half-full
- learned that happiness is what it's all about
- gained loads of confidence
- started buying colorful clothes that make me feel cute
- become obsessed with accessories (scarves and earrings, mostly)
- started to wear makeup
- become aware that we all have a long way to go
- stopped being jealous of people who I have perceived to be more successful than I am - everyone has their own challenges
- discovered that looking forward is more important than looking back
- embraced life
I'll try to be here more often. 2010 is gonna be one hell of a trip.