soooo tired
i worked all god damn day at the deli and now i am going to marios to deliver fucking pizza's...if i wasnt so broke id just pass out for 4 hours, but since nothing ever works out for me i guess im going to work...
i think i wanna feel bad for myself for a sec, why does everything have to be so complicated??? whenever something good happens to me there has to be a catch, w/ everyhthing!!! i dont know what i have to do to make things go my way just for like a day...and in that day i would want answers, answers to why all this shit goes on in my life. its like im standing at the edge of a cliff and there is a million dollars but its at the bottom and i have to jump to get it...is it worth killing myself over? i dunno, i just want to know what is going on in her head, it is killing me, and all i wanna do is tell her how i feel but it would ruin everything- i think...and then i think what if she is waiting for me to say something bc she feels stupid or maybe she is scarred of being rejected or maybe im just projecting bc i have nothing better to do w/ my time...
i feel like pulling my hair out of my head, bc you know what im just gonna fucking say it- i am so in love w/ her, and hooking up on the dL is killing me, but at the same time its what i live for right now...she is so amazing and i would to anything for her at any moment, no matter what im doing...i wish i could just tell her this...aimee please tell me what to do, im so confused.
i think i wanna feel bad for myself for a sec, why does everything have to be so complicated??? whenever something good happens to me there has to be a catch, w/ everyhthing!!! i dont know what i have to do to make things go my way just for like a day...and in that day i would want answers, answers to why all this shit goes on in my life. its like im standing at the edge of a cliff and there is a million dollars but its at the bottom and i have to jump to get it...is it worth killing myself over? i dunno, i just want to know what is going on in her head, it is killing me, and all i wanna do is tell her how i feel but it would ruin everything- i think...and then i think what if she is waiting for me to say something bc she feels stupid or maybe she is scarred of being rejected or maybe im just projecting bc i have nothing better to do w/ my time...
i feel like pulling my hair out of my head, bc you know what im just gonna fucking say it- i am so in love w/ her, and hooking up on the dL is killing me, but at the same time its what i live for right now...she is so amazing and i would to anything for her at any moment, no matter what im doing...i wish i could just tell her this...aimee please tell me what to do, im so confused.