I'll try and update this without erasing what I have written
It's one of those time where I hate and love where I am. My moods change from minute to minute, which is no fun. But I love my swings of happiness. Excited and Scared of what the future holds for me, since right now pretty much anything is a go.
"Let go." I was let go twice in half a month. Two weeks. One week a part. Couldn't afford to pay me. And couldn't afford to love me? Almost two years of dedication. Four years, and all of a sudden I can't be with you anymore. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. Fool me three times, Adrienne, you are an idiot. Well heck it was worth the hurt I suppose. I had my first full blown panic attack. I was gonna call my neighbor to be with me but I calmed myself down. And my constant anxiety only comes and goes now. I want to get over it NOW. NAO. lol
Anyfuckingways, I have been mulling over the idea of volunteering overseas. But I don't know any programs that would pay for room and stuff. I'd pay for it myself but can't really afford it. The idea is still in an infant stage, but I should keep my options open. At least my love and motivation would go to a cause that wants and needs it.
I apologize if I have been in my own little world. I'm slowly clawing my way out. I need to stop being so emo. Lulz.
"Let go." I was let go twice in half a month. Two weeks. One week a part. Couldn't afford to pay me. And couldn't afford to love me? Almost two years of dedication. Four years, and all of a sudden I can't be with you anymore. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. Fool me three times, Adrienne, you are an idiot. Well heck it was worth the hurt I suppose. I had my first full blown panic attack. I was gonna call my neighbor to be with me but I calmed myself down. And my constant anxiety only comes and goes now. I want to get over it NOW. NAO. lol
Anyfuckingways, I have been mulling over the idea of volunteering overseas. But I don't know any programs that would pay for room and stuff. I'd pay for it myself but can't really afford it. The idea is still in an infant stage, but I should keep my options open. At least my love and motivation would go to a cause that wants and needs it.
I apologize if I have been in my own little world. I'm slowly clawing my way out. I need to stop being so emo. Lulz.