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i took a deep breath and sighed as i went to sleep, i was so tired.
i knocked out, and tumbled into this nightmare.
all i saw was fashes and replayed sceens of what had happend
over
and over
and over again
i was crying, and screaming in my dreams
my heart was raceing and i couldnt breath.
when i awoke i was curled up in the fetal position shaking and cry and i was having a panic attack.
and when i opened my eyes my night mare was still there
i closed my eyes and rubbed them and opened them again
it was still there i got up and raced out of the room and hid in the living room and lost myself on the internet for a few hours
finaly i was able to go back to sleep.
( true events from a week or so ago)
i cant seem to escape myself. so what am i to do now???
its been a bit better, ihave had other scares.... i might of been pregs and lost the baby. and didnt even know it, probably was only about a month along. but we'll see tomarrow when i go to the dr. and they should be able to tell me if that was what happend or not.
i knocked out, and tumbled into this nightmare.
all i saw was fashes and replayed sceens of what had happend
over
and over
and over again
i was crying, and screaming in my dreams
my heart was raceing and i couldnt breath.
when i awoke i was curled up in the fetal position shaking and cry and i was having a panic attack.
and when i opened my eyes my night mare was still there
i closed my eyes and rubbed them and opened them again
it was still there i got up and raced out of the room and hid in the living room and lost myself on the internet for a few hours
finaly i was able to go back to sleep.
( true events from a week or so ago)
i cant seem to escape myself. so what am i to do now???
its been a bit better, ihave had other scares.... i might of been pregs and lost the baby. and didnt even know it, probably was only about a month along. but we'll see tomarrow when i go to the dr. and they should be able to tell me if that was what happend or not.