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Just letting you know right now, this is not going to be one of my more optomistic entries...I'm overwhelemed to say the least...in far too many aspects, but I'm debating whether I should even bother denouncing them in my journal entry, since it would after all just further prove a certain someone's theory taht I am completely selfish and inconsiderate of anyone but myself...but who isn't...honestly, I am sorry for being the way I am..and I dont want to excuse any of my behavior...but is it really such a wrong doing for an individual to do something of a negative nature taht he or she does not even realize..maybe it's just that I'm oblivious...but none the less...I'm still wrong...and I'm scared...I have no direction...I know everyones getting hasseled about college, and I'm constantly getting the idea of leaving as being "frowned upon" ...but i need to get out of this town..theres nothing left for me here... I luv my friends..but we're all fading.. and it's not like they couldnt do without me, perhaps they'd be much better off..after all everything I do affects everyone else, and to my knowledge, its never been for the better... i cant live inbetween my parents anymore..and I can't live int he midst of these tormenting memories..I can't wait to Say Good bye.