Summer Pain
Title ; Summer Pain
Pairing ; KyuMin ; Hyukjae
Rating ; PG-13
Genre ; Angst
Disclaimer ; I don't own the boys. Just the plot and their posters on my wall
Warning ; Character Death
Summary ;
Sungmin never expected this to happen. He never thought the man he trusted the most would do this to him. He felt like he's being stabbed by a thousand knives. It was hurt and painful.
A/N ; I've wrote this story about years ago with OC pairing which i have published in my WP (Indonesian Version). And i decided to turn this as KyuMin :) so enjoy. And THIS IS UNBETA-ED.. So forgive me for grammatical error and Bad English T_T
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'Have you ever loved someone until you wanted to die?' Asked a man quietly and almost like a whisper. He caressed a piece of glossy paper before him softly and carefully as if he didn't want to hurt another man reflection on it.
He looked at the photo of a man wearing a black tuxedo with a black tie who was holding a glass of wine happily. He smiled at the photo as if returned the smile the other man offered him through the photo.
A minute later, he moved to another photo which neatly attached on his room's wall, right on his headboard.
And after he was satisfied looking all the photos there, the man switched his position to the brown table not far from his bed. He lighted a small candle on the corner of the table and he took one of the photos from the edge of his square mirror.
'I know what it feels and I'll make you love me until you don't wanna die…'
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Lee Sungmin was yawning when he realized that his senior has taken his photo. He immediately approached him and made a face as if he was upset.
'Ya! Lee Hyukjae! Delete that photo you took! It's rude taking someone's photo without permission, you know?!' Sungmin exclaimed to the red haired man before him. And tried his best to look intimidate. But it seemed like it didn't work to the man before him because he was looking at Sungmin with a lazy look at the moment.
'Well, I never heard paparazzi asking for a permission when they took a picture from their target'
'And are you paparazzi?' Sungmin asked. He was annoyed by Hyukjae's reaction as if he challenged him. Sungmin didn't know how many time he caught Hyukjae taking his photo secretly and it made Sungmin uncomfortable because he felt like he was being watched.
'Actually, that's my dream. But unfortunately my camera revolution isn't that good. Look! You look horrible in this photo!' And after he showed the photo to Sungmin for a second, he ran to the nearest building to avoid Sungmin's punch.
'Why don't you tell this to your brother? That monkey is annoying!' Asked a black hair man beside him while he's still pouting and glared at the running Hyukjae.
'Shindong is more concern about what's left in the refrigerator than the fact that his brother got a Monkey took his brother's picture. Oh, c'mon Kyuhyun! You know it already!' Sungmin answered the man question while rolling his eyes before took the man's wrist and lead the way to the cafetaria in the end of the hallway.
And the black hair man looked at Sungmin's hand which was holding his wrist in shock and back to stare at his back fondly as if Sungmin was his precious. And he just hoped that someday, Sungmin will feel the same.
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'Do you know how it feels when I see you with someone else?' Asked the man who wore a long black coat while staring at someone's photo on his cell phone as if he asked him.
'It feels hurt.' He answered himself. 'Here..' He pointed at his left chest.
'For me, there's no one but you. But why don't you realize that? I'm hurt. It's really hurt. As if you ignore me. But why him? Why must him?' The man now couldn't hold his emotions.
And finally the tears which he has held for such a long time now rolling down freely from his eyes. And his mind finally decided the one and only way to erase his pain.
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Sungmin stared the gravestone before him with glazed. He remembered he could still screaming at the man when he had stolen his photo secretly two days ago.
Sungmin couldn't figure what's on his mind until the man did this thing to himself? Why did he hurt himself like this? Why did Hyukjae commit suicide?
Sungmin still couldn't get this off of his mind. He even hasn't told his feeling for him. For Lee Hyukjae.
Sungmin hasn't told him that he loved Hyukjae. How he missed Hyukjae teasing him. How he needed someone who made him feel special.
But now, Hyukjae has gone. The one he loved has gone. He choose to lie in his eternal bed. The place that could not be reached by anyone. Not even Sungmin.
Even in every pray he hoped that it was a dream and when he woke up the next day everything would be back as it was.
He even pleaded to God to turn back the time so that he could say how much he loved the latter.
'Hush now, don't cry again okay..' Kyuhyun held the older in a tight embrace. Tried to calm his hyung down. He erased the tears which was rolling down from the other eyes.
'We could only pray that God would forgive him because he hurt himself like this.' Kyuhyun added as he squeezed Sungmin's left hand in attempt to calm him.
Kyuhyun knew how Sungmin's felt right now so he just could lend his chest for him. Wishing that his sorrow would change into smile. The smile which was only for him.
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[Six months later]
Sungmin never expected this to happen. He never thought the man he trusted the most would do this to him. He felt like he's being stabbed by a thousand knives. It was hurt and painful.
The pain was fettered the organ in his left chest strongly beyond the pain he physically felt.
'How could you do this to me? I trusted you!!' Sungmin screamed in the middle of his sob. The dark and empty shed already helped his voice sounds louder.
But the man who was sitting on the wooden chair only stared at him who lied on the shed's floor with a cold stare. As if Sungmin's scream was just a whisper of the wind.
'Answer me you bastard! Answer me Cho Kyuhyun! How could you do this to me?' Sungmin's exclaimed once again. He gathered all of his strength trying to stand up from his current position.
Instead of answering the question, Kyuhyun adjusted his glasses and wore back his black leather gloves.
He approached Sungmin and held his chin so that Sungmin was facing him now until Sungmin could see his dark orbs. There were a resentment and sadness painted in his deep gaze.
'If you didn't ignore me, you don't have to through this.' Kyuhyun hissed and then pulled out a small shotgun from his pocket. He looked at Sungmin furiously and let out what he has been keeping for all this time.
'I was the one who always took your photo secretly, but you only cared for him who just took your photo once in a while! I was the one who always loved you and admired you! I was always there, by your side in your darkness time. But you've never realized that!'
'You were always talking about him in front of me! Even when he's already dead! Even when Lee Hyukjae was dead in my hand, you were always thinking about him!! Did you know how much it hurt me?'
And after he realized that Sungmin stared at him in disgust, Kyuhyun tightened his grip on the thing in his hand and a second later, his face was splashed by dark red thick liquid that smell fishy and mixed by sulfur.
Kyuhyun cleaned his face with his handkerchief which given by Sungmin years ago. He put Sungmin's lifeless body back to the floor then he walked to the corner of the shed to take something.
He poured the liquid to Sungmin's body until his blood which still out from his temple mixed with the liquid. And then Kyuhyun took out a cigarette from his black jeans' pocket. He sit back on the wooden chair before Sungmin's body and after he felt comfortable with his position, he lit a lighter and begin to suck his cigarette.
'Be thankful to me, because at least I make you both together in the other world.' Kyuhyun said to lifeless body before him. It was sad he couldn't see Sungmin's smile again. Smile that melted his heart everytime he saw it. But he realized that his sincere smile never meant to him.
'But..no, even in the other world I'll never let you both together.' After he finished his sentences, he dropped the lighter to the floor which was full of the liquid he has poured to Sungmin's body.
And seconds later the reddish orange light were booming throughout the shed. Covered their body with no hesitation.
And when the dawn finally came, there were nothing left unless the pain and the resentment that will be carried until both of them met again in the next life.
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*I don't care about anyone else.. No matter who curse at me..
If I am born again, I will see only you...
It will still be only you...
Even as time flies..
It's you...
*It's You lyrics by Super Junior