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Title ; Air~
Pairing ; KyuMin
Rating ; PG-13
Genre ; Angst
Disclaimer ; I don't own the boys. Just the plot and their posters on my wall
Summary ;
Even the coral could be eroded if it always chastened by the waves, right?
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You looked at the wheel before you with a blank stare. There was nothing coming to your mind except how to solve all of this mess you have caused. Driving a car was your hardest thing to do. That accident really made you feel traumatic for riding this four-wheel thing.
But now, you had to fight your fear. For now, nothing was more important than chasing his shadow. You didn’t mind if you have to struggle to attain him. You did not need anything, all you need was your wind. All you need was your air.
As fast as he comes just like as soon as he disappears.
You stared at your black metallic cell phone’s screen which was lying on your dashboard once again. You gave up calling him, it was worthless, because he would never answered your call. For the last one hour you had tried so many ways to find out where he had gone, but as sky darkened, there was no signal of him. Nothing!
You knew that this was your fault in a first place.
It was your fault when you wanted the wind for coming to you to erase your tears away and it was your fault when you whispered to him about your happiness because you could hold him. And you knew that deep within your mind, you tortured him slowly.
But, were you egoist when you wanted that air always refreshed you from all your sweat that you had from life? Were you egoist when you wanted the world to keep its pivot on you?
But that was you. Your pride was your egocentric. And believe it or not, that was the only thing that made you survive when he wasn’t with you.
Only that air which could tear down your pride which you build above your fragile feet.
The sky was perfectly darkened above you but you still sat motionless inside your car. You switched off the air conditioner then you opened the car’s window to inhale the night air. It blew your hair and distracted your vision as you close your eyes to feel the chill.
Slowly you opened your eyes and scanned your surroundings. It was quite and almost no sign of life. Only a few cars were splitting the road and passed in your right side. And suddenly you wondered how the road reflected your heart tonight.
It was like when there were people in your life but they didn’t bother to stay long. Just slowly passed and then gone. But not after he came to your life.
Summer night always reminds you of him. Because he is your summer, he is your sun.
You inhaled the night air slowly, tried to hold it as long as you could in your lung. Wishing when you finally released it, the sweet scent of this night would remind to eliminate the pain of your emptiness.
Your world was different, that was what he had always told you. And for God’s sake, you knew it! Even without he had to explain, you did understand.
He was the wind and the air for you and you knew that you were the one who became his resting place. You thought that you both understood about the unspoken words.
First was Seohyun, your junior in choir class. Well, Seohyun was pretty and not mention she was interested in you. But no, you even didn’t spare her a glance when she had confessed to you.
Second was Victoria, your senior in your Chinese class. You saw her like your sister because she managed to do everything just like your sister did to you. And besides, she was in relationship with a handsome model named Nickhun.
Then Zhou Mi, your friend in your Chinese class. He was handsome and kind and bubbly and to be honest he was saving you from the boringness in class. And the most important thing Zhou Mi had already engaged.
And even now Siwon was involved! Siwon was your bestfriend!
Okay, it was your fault that you didn't even bother to explained that to the one you love. That was your pride again that prevented you to tell him.
But, whoever was beside you, they weren’t the one that you wanted to be your world pivot. You just needed your wind that erased your tiredness. You needed that air, no, the one who you needed the most was your oxygen and that was him.
Your eyes stop admiring the beauty that God drew above your head when a shadow entered a park gate before you out of sudden. And without a second thought, you ran after it. But your step was stopped by a horn and a small light from the black Volvo’s headlight which blurred your vision ahead.
You bowed a little to the old man who was sitting behind the steering wheel before you came back to your focus to catch the shadow. Didn’t even bother about the fact that the old man was cursing at you in such a bad word he knew.
Now or never
Finally, you found that shadow. No, that shadow was your man. Someone who had accompanied you through your restlessness for almost six years. And you hoped that it was still counting. He looked so rigid and standing so tough just like the coral in the middle of the sea.
But you knew his back never lied. He was fragile, no matter how hard he tried to hide it.
Even the coral could be eroded if it always chastened by the waves, right?
It’s sad when you realized that the waves were you. That the one who chastened the rigid and the toughness of the coral were you.
You stopped your path when the man stopped and sit in a simple bench which was face to face with a small fountain.
“What are you doing here?” you asked when you finally stood behind him. You could see he held back his smile when you sit beside him. You stretched your leg and massaged it slowly because you sit too long in your car and not to mention that you were motionless. You kept your eyes on him when you did that gesture.
Because, You didn’t want him to disappear again from your vision. Not for today, not forever.
“Nothing” he answered with a shrug on his shoulder. “And what are you doing here Cho Kyuhyun?” he asked and then tilted his head to your direction so both your eyes now meeting each other. Reflect, you broke it first and looked at the little fountain before you instead.
“Nothing” You answered him after five minute thinking about what should you say to him. And you couldn’t help but to assume that right now he must be thought that you were a selfish bastard who never accepted about the defeat.
Yah! Why was this pride showed up in such a wrong time! Relax Cho Kyuhyun, you didn’t want to lose your air forever, did you? You calmed yourself.
“Lee Sungmin” Finally after the long debated with your own ego, you could break the silence between you and him. “You always have a house for you to come home” You added and it was really hard for you to hold the urge to hug him. Well, you would hug him but not for now.
“I know!” he said while smiling at you. No, please! Don’t smile like that when your heart is hurting, you screamed in your mind.
“So, please, go home!” You asked. You could hear your own voice pleading to him. You looked at his beautiful dark brown orbs intensely, wishing he could understand what you just said.
Please, go home to where you should belong to. Go home to me, you know that I always waited for you to fill my emptiness when you were not around, right? You screamed out loud in your mind.
“Just go home Cho and leave me here alone” he asked. His voice was calm but full of an exact firm within it. And that was successfully brought up your ego back to its place.
“Okay! If this is what you really want! Just do whatever you want, Min!” You said to him with a cold and sarcasm in your voice while you stood up from the bench and left him. You put your freezing hands inside your black trouser’s pocket and held your fist there. You secretly wished he couldn’t see that your ego took control over you, again.
You granted his wish. You left him in his deep solitude.
But you just realized about two things, that, the air was always there around you, but not to be grasped, just to be felt by you. The sun would always kept its promise yesterday evening that it would be back after the dawn tomorrow morning, but didn’t mean that it would shine eternally. There’s night that replaced it for a moment.
Maybe that was the way you felt for him and maybe that was the way he felt for you. Your world was different and that was just too obvious to be hidden.
Or maybe he needed some time after all.
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Sungmin stopped his step when he saw a guy standing confidently across the park’s gate where he was standing right now. On a first glance, he thought that the guy wasn’t the person he wanted to avoid. But Sungmin had to know that it was the most stupid idea considering that Cho Kyuhyun, that guy, wasn’t the one who would accept his defeat easily.
“I said to you two hours ago to leave me alone, didn’t I?” Sungmin said from where he was standing. Not moving at all.
“’Just go home Cho and leave me here alone’ that exactly what you said to me, Min!” Kyuhyun replied him with a low tone voice but it was loud enough for Sungmin who stood ten meters away from him to hear. The night was getting late as the road getting quite because there was none of vehicle drifted. And a little did Sungmin knew, that was the reason why he could hear Kyuhyun’s low tone voice in such a distance.
“And for me it means that I must leave you alone in there!” Kyuhyun added as he fixed his brown long coat when he felt it wasn’t comfortable. Sungmin looked at him in disbelief. That brat always has a reason!
He was jealous for me being friendly with his so-called bestfriend Donghae and Siwon and what now? He used my words against myself? This brat was really something! Sungmin muttered under his breath. And Sungmin tried not to bother by that so he started to walk again.
“Min!” Kyuhyun’s voice stopped him out of sudden. And his mind became blurred when he saw Kyuhyun walked toward him. His charm could always freeze his world and that was the main reason why Sungmin needed some time to neutralize his feeling. But too late, Sungmin couldn’t run again because Kyuhyun held his wrist tightly.
And suddenly the street lights lit up and strangely centered on them. Sungmin couldn’t hide his shock expression while Kyuhyun smirked at him.
“What are you planning?” Sungmin asked with full anticipate in his voice. As he could remembered there were never a good thing when Kyuhyun saw him that infamous smirk.
“You just have to silence and listen to me” Kyuhyun said tenderly while stroking Sungmin’s left check.
Kyuhyun stared at Sungmin’s doe-eyes lovingly as he smiled slyly. He circled his hand around Sungmin’s slender waist without broke their eye contact.
“Stop being mad at me Min-ah. You don’t need to be jealous with everyone around me, okay! Because I only see you…” Kyuhyun began to comfort Sungmin by stroking the latter’s cheek with his right hand. Sungmin broke their eye contact and trying to see everywhere but Kyuhyun. Then Kyuhyun hold his chin up to make Sungmin looked at him once again.
“Just listen to me Minnie! After this, I’m gonna make things up to you..’ Kyuhyun said after let out his resign sigh and that’s enough to make Sungmin calmed down and started to look at Kyuhyun once again.
“As if the water, waves were the controller. As if the night, moon was the rainbow. If that was a song, poems were its symphony. When there was black, white was the lantern. And like the forest, trees were the cantilever…”
There was a silence when Kyuhyun closed his eyes and inhaled the long breath before he released it slowly. And then he backed to look at Sungmin’s beautiful eyes. Deep as if he didn’t want to let him go again.
“And just like me, you’re my sun.. but most of all you are my air..” Kyuhyun added the line dramatically while looked at Sungmin directly in his eyes. As if he wanted to make sure that it wasn’t him who’s shinning Sungmin’s day all of this time, but Sungmin himself who’s shinning his world.
And the silence came again, not an awkward silence but comfortable silence as Sungmin finally wrapped his own hand around Kyuhyun’s waist. Sungmin put his head in the middle of the other neck and shoulder while started to sob his heart out.
“You’re cheesy brat! Once again you did that cheesy line to me, I’m gonna kick your ass!” Sungmin mumbled within his sob without breaking their hug.
“I love you too, Minnie!” Kyuhyun tightened his hug on Sungmin and stroking his back up and down slowly. Ignoring the fact that they were still in the middle of the night.
Well, maybe when they arrived at dorm later, Kyuhyun must thanked Donghae for that romantic quote he just said to Sungmin earlier. But Kyuhyun would rather pick the shorter one since he took fifteen minutes only to memorize the lines when he waited for Sungmin out from the park.
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What did i write here? /forever fail~