sadness flows through me
i've been trying to paint but right now i havent been able to really really get myself out onto the canvas like before. i hate this right now.
well i just got in to a fight which is probably one of the reasons why i'm updating (and for heather too :] ) i hate fights too. rawwwr!
i dont know what to do i feel like i should yell at the top of my lungs and say everything in the world that i feel but i fear that it will be acknowledged by a steady dial tone. if i try and stay rational, its like i give in and accept that i'm partly to blame, which is kinda true, but i dont want to my reasons to be lost...so whats a girl to do?
why cant we be the guys and just wait till they call us? is it because inside every girl we fear that with every unspoken conversation we are losing happiness with a fairy tale prince? does optimisim flow with our veins more than it does with guys?
i'm afraid he wont call. what scares me even more is that if he doesnt call today wil he tomorrow?
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on a lighter note, the team has won our 5th meet this year and 4 of them were in a row! thats lady raider history! i love my golden xc team! we run this weekend in round rock; i'm super excited!
well i just got in to a fight which is probably one of the reasons why i'm updating (and for heather too :] ) i hate fights too. rawwwr!
i dont know what to do i feel like i should yell at the top of my lungs and say everything in the world that i feel but i fear that it will be acknowledged by a steady dial tone. if i try and stay rational, its like i give in and accept that i'm partly to blame, which is kinda true, but i dont want to my reasons to be lost...so whats a girl to do?
why cant we be the guys and just wait till they call us? is it because inside every girl we fear that with every unspoken conversation we are losing happiness with a fairy tale prince? does optimisim flow with our veins more than it does with guys?
i'm afraid he wont call. what scares me even more is that if he doesnt call today wil he tomorrow?
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on a lighter note, the team has won our 5th meet this year and 4 of them were in a row! thats lady raider history! i love my golden xc team! we run this weekend in round rock; i'm super excited!