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I'm just going to fucking shoot myself. How can I have this much work!? Its fucking one in the morning and I still have two lab reports to write. Why is all the work I have due from Ryvkin? I never get a fucking break, I'm going insane. Now I have to come back to Emmanuel over the break and run a purification because I didn't finish enough in my internship. Usually I'd just say fuck it, but Ryvkin put in an INC (incomplete) for my internship grade instead of IP (in progress) so my GPA just got destroyed for "failing" a class, even though I have until Feb 1st to have it revoked. I'm not alone, Lear had the same thing happen to her. I blew cock for my thermo final, 76, despite being the second highest grade. I drank an entire energy drink tonight, but i just feel jittery AND tired AND unable to fall asleep now. Loverly. Fuck. my. life. I just want this fucking shit to be over. But once its over... I have no plan. I haven't applied to grad school, I have no job set up, thus that equates to living at home if I don't get my shit together. But how can I when I'm working NONSTOP, I take any chance i get to slow down, but I don't rest, I party. Funny how Ryvkin knows that. I don't know how... but she told me to "rest", not just "don't do school work". Fuckin hell. I need home... but i feel like I've missed the whole "break at the end of the semester" thing. Oh well. Hate life. Back to work.