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[cocoapuffs2]

So, the past few weeks, I've been thinking a lot. And maybe it's because of the new medicine I'm on and all the stuff it does to my hormones, but I've been kinda down. I've been thinking a lot about my life and who I am and how I treat people. And I don't really like what I've been thinking. I don't really know who I am anymore. I need to move on

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to my beautiful beautiful brenna...

[greenroketshoes]

"I used to be the sweet little girl that never said anything bad about anyone and was everyone's best friend" i don't wanna completely knock you off your axis, but are you sure? i know that you've been able to talk up a good piece of shit bout people for a while now. not that it's been in bad ways. and i'm sure that the way in which you talk about people has changed. but while you're exploring and searching inside yourself, be sure to see yourself truly as you were. and don't try to go back to it. you'll never be that person again. ever. and do you really wanna be? seriously, bren, i struggled with these SAME EXACT questions. i still struggle. and what i've realized is that i tend to look back at things as easier or better. but it's just cause i'm not in it at this moment. oh gosh, the number of times i've wished for the past...savor the moment. love the memory. but then be glad you're in today. because right here. right now. is exactly where you're supposed to be. it's so awesome to hear you struggling with this stuff. it reassures me that i'm not crazy, and it brings us closer. I love my brenna more than i can ever say. i'm here if you ever need anything. ever. and there's a poem i wrote last year that seems appropriate i'll post it in my journal. i hope this helps. i hope i'm not preaching. and i hope you're patient with yourself through this. it's good. very good.

Re: to my beautiful beautiful brenna...

[cocoapuffs2]

Thank you Michelle! I can't tell you how helpful you have been. I'm so glad to hear that someone has the same questions that I do. I can't wait to see you and go to the Ranch. I can't tell you how much I need that right now. I LOVE MY MICHELLE!