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So, the past few weeks, I've been thinking a lot. And maybe it's because of the new medicine I'm on and all the stuff it does to my hormones, but I've been kinda down. I've been thinking a lot about my life and who I am and how I treat people. And I don't really like what I've been thinking. I don't really know who I am anymore. I need to move on from some things and recognize others as life changing. I need to separate myself from certain people and find out who I really am by myself. I spend so much time with certain people that I don't know how I act when I'm by myself. I've started treating people badly and being more judgemental and talk about people behind their backs, and I don't like that. I used to be the sweet little girl that never said anything bad about anyone and was everyone's best friend, and I don't know if I'm that anymore. I don't feel like I'm nice. I feel mean all the time. And I don't feel like I'm anyone's best friend. I've thought about this, and the people that I'm kinda good friends with, I don't think I'm as good as friends with them as I thought I was. I'm only really close with like 3 people here, and I thought that there were more. I also feel like I rely on others too much. Like I can't go out and do something by myself, I have to have someone with me, preferably someone that I'm close to. And this weekend they were all gone, so I had nothing to do. I sat in my room and did nothing all day while they were gone, because I felt like I needed them to be there so that I could do something. I don't like that. I'm used to being an independent person, and now that I feel like I have to rely on other people makes me feel weird. But at the same time I don't do anything about it.
I need to listen to what Michelle told me today. I need to listen to my soul. Just sit in the silence and listen to what my soul is telling me. Thank you Michelle for being such a great friend today. You understand me in a way that I don't think anyone else does. Anyway, that's my thinking for the day. Thanks for listening.
!UOY EVOL I .uoy tuoba erac I hcum woh htiw od ot sah siht fo yna taht kniht t'noD . hcum os uoy evol I ,werdnA
word to your mother.
I need to listen to what Michelle told me today. I need to listen to my soul. Just sit in the silence and listen to what my soul is telling me. Thank you Michelle for being such a great friend today. You understand me in a way that I don't think anyone else does. Anyway, that's my thinking for the day. Thanks for listening.
!UOY EVOL I .uoy tuoba erac I hcum woh htiw od ot sah siht fo yna taht kniht t'noD . hcum os uoy evol I ,werdnA
word to your mother.