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So, the past few days have been pretty boring. No one has really been around, so I've basically been sitting in my room all day. Sounds pathetic, I know. It wasn't so bad. It's nice to have some "me time" sometimes. However, I've been spending this "me time" watching Smallville Season One Dvds. I got hooked when Cellen started watching them, and now I just can't stop myself. I finished the season today and now I really want to know what happens next! The anticipation is killing me! I guess that's their goal. Anyway, the point is is that I've been a lazy bum and am starting to feel really sad about myself. Well, not really sad, just kinda lonely sometimes. I've been going through some weird emotional stuff, so that's been hard on me and Andrew and I feel really bad about causing that weight on his shoulders. But he has been totally amazing with it all, and I count my blessings to have him in my life.
School's almost over. Which means that I have to decide what classes I'll be taking next year. It also means that I have to find a summer job. And decide when I'm coming home and when I'm coming back to school. And figure out when I can see Andrew. That's the problem with relationships at college. Most of the people you meet don't live in the same state as you, so it makes it difficult to see them outside of school. But I think we'll all be able to manage.
My sister's show opened Friday night. She said it went really well, and I am very proud of her. I can't tell you how much I wish I could have been there to see it. It's her first show at my old high school, where I didn't have much success in the drama department. I hope she fares better than I will. I think she has more of the qualities that they look for there. She's more of the belter and actress, where I'm the classical singer who can do some soprano musical theater. Anyway, I am very proud of who she is becoming, and I'm so glad to be her sister.
The sad thing about right now is that I'm about to go to sleep. I got a little less than 10 hours of sleep last night, Andrew got about 4, and I'll be going to sleep before him. He will also be getting up at 6:30 tomorrow morning, where as I will be getting up around 10 or whenever I decide to wake up. It seems like this always happens. He's so busy, with his classes, work, orchestra, and ultimate, that I feel like I'm just an extra burden that he shouldn't have to deal with. I only feel like this sometimes, not all the time. But when I do I feel bad. I want to be with him all the time and just be there to support him, but then I also feel like I should get out of his way and not add any more complications into his life. I don't know.
Well, an ambulance just pulled up in front of my dorm. People have been drinking all day, so my guess is it's alcohol poisoning or something. It's happened before. I know that I'll hear the whole story tomorrow morning from someone. News spreads very fast around here. I just found out that it's a girl on my floor. She's gone into the hospital for alcohol before. Kinda scary though.
OK. Well, I think I'm off to bed now. Too much excitment for this little girl.
word to your mother.