dreams can suck
I'M BACK! sorta. sorry about the lack of "i'm going on a hiatus" post. things started happening really quick and i ran out of time. I had projects out the wazoo, graduation, grad nite, grad parties, anthony & my dad flying out/leaving, senior trip to FL (disneyworld, and yes i will be posting pics), more grad parties, and now Trisha's debut. EEK. insane? yes :) but fun. except the project part O_o gross.
i took a nap today and had a very unnerving dream. don't you hate those? Anthony and my dad were back out here for some reason. we were all shopping at this place i must of made up, lol. my mom said she'd pick me and anthony up around the corner so we both shopped and met up and waited for bout 20 min. then he left for a bit and came back and asked if she had been by yet and i told him no. we both started getting a bit antsy so we headed back to where she had dropped us off. we saw her standing there and then at first, we were like "where have been?! you're late" til we got up close and saw what she looked like. Her dress was ripped and tattered and she looked like a mess. in my dream this one gang had beaten her up. and something that really po'ed me was how me and anthony reacted in the dream. cause we would of never done that. we would of gone to beat the s.o.b.'s up. i did cuss in my dream so i guess that's something. but one crappy thing bout dreams? it's hard to get rid of images. like the one of how my mom looked. *sighs* dreams can suck -_-
I got a letter in the mail today for a job. It was for a company called Vector and they're looking for people in the area to work straight of high school. i think it said $18 an hr or something. which is REALLY good. no experience, etc. I want to go for it, i do, but if i take it now, i can't go back to CT. and i want to so badly see anthony & my dad again. the one thing that made them leaving here after graduation easier was knowing i would be seeing them again soon. i was still a complete mess for at least one full day. my poor pup didn't know what to do. he'd walk up to me, lick me, then try to play by nibbling on my finger. when he realized i wasnt gunna play he just cuddled up. por lil guy, i hugged him for trying, lol. the thing about this letter is that i need to respond within 5 days of receiving it. so i don't have much time to make up my mind. poo.
i need to get to bed. lots to do before trisha's debut tomorrow. her mom i guess wanted me and/or karlie to do a speech since we're her best friends, so i wrote one but i'm nervous already. i can't imagine saying it in front of a lot of people. and i have issues sharing my feelings period, let alone telling a bunch of people i do and don't know. eek. idk if i can do it. but i wrote it just incase. hopefully i'll be able to update soon. love you all & miss you
i took a nap today and had a very unnerving dream. don't you hate those? Anthony and my dad were back out here for some reason. we were all shopping at this place i must of made up, lol. my mom said she'd pick me and anthony up around the corner so we both shopped and met up and waited for bout 20 min. then he left for a bit and came back and asked if she had been by yet and i told him no. we both started getting a bit antsy so we headed back to where she had dropped us off. we saw her standing there and then at first, we were like "where have been?! you're late" til we got up close and saw what she looked like. Her dress was ripped and tattered and she looked like a mess. in my dream this one gang had beaten her up. and something that really po'ed me was how me and anthony reacted in the dream. cause we would of never done that. we would of gone to beat the s.o.b.'s up. i did cuss in my dream so i guess that's something. but one crappy thing bout dreams? it's hard to get rid of images. like the one of how my mom looked. *sighs* dreams can suck -_-
I got a letter in the mail today for a job. It was for a company called Vector and they're looking for people in the area to work straight of high school. i think it said $18 an hr or something. which is REALLY good. no experience, etc. I want to go for it, i do, but if i take it now, i can't go back to CT. and i want to so badly see anthony & my dad again. the one thing that made them leaving here after graduation easier was knowing i would be seeing them again soon. i was still a complete mess for at least one full day. my poor pup didn't know what to do. he'd walk up to me, lick me, then try to play by nibbling on my finger. when he realized i wasnt gunna play he just cuddled up. por lil guy, i hugged him for trying, lol. the thing about this letter is that i need to respond within 5 days of receiving it. so i don't have much time to make up my mind. poo.
i need to get to bed. lots to do before trisha's debut tomorrow. her mom i guess wanted me and/or karlie to do a speech since we're her best friends, so i wrote one but i'm nervous already. i can't imagine saying it in front of a lot of people. and i have issues sharing my feelings period, let alone telling a bunch of people i do and don't know. eek. idk if i can do it. but i wrote it just incase. hopefully i'll be able to update soon. love you all & miss you