crash. boom. bang.
i promise my next post to be happy with pictures from prom and such :) cause it was a good weekend (minus the past week).
on friday they had this crash assembly during school for the seniors and juniors cause prom was the next day so they were trying to discourage kids from drinking and driving. honestly? i'm glad they had it. not necessarily glad for me, but because i'm glad that the police and firemen and everyone took time out of their lives to try to help students. so basically this crash assmebly was acting out a crash scene on the way home from prom. they had police, fire trucks, ambulances, equipment, the works. of course there were idiots in back making fun of everything. and most people it totally didnt even affect. most of my friends i'm happy to say were at least respectful and didn't say or laugh at any of it. i mean it may be badly acted out, but that's just rude and very disrepectful in my eyes. idk why the darn scene affected me so much. i came close to crying during it. well i know it had to do with putting me in their shoes, which i know i shouldn't do. but they had a mother up there screaming cuse in the scene her son was unconscious and now paralyzed. and the one thing that would not leave my mind is anthony. he drives drunk, a lot. and he honestly thinks it's okay. he keeps telling me that, and i want so badly to believe him, but i know i can't and never will. there's always that ONE time, and i'm afraid that one time will end up something like that scene, and from what i saw, it scares the crap out of me. i don't know what to do. and then i imagined if that mom had been my mom, omg. seriously, idk if she could survive something like that. and then after all that, i had to go and take a physics test. screw that. i wasn't in a very good mood for the rest of the day. i really didn't want to do anything. but then melanie invited me to lunch, and i accepted. idk why, i think mainly i wanted to snap out of the mood i was in, which i know going home wouldn't of helped. my mom would of just tried to figure out what was wrong and it would have been ultimately unavoidable. i still haven't told her about the assembly. oh and to top it off, they played sad music during the scenes. and THEY USED EVANESCENE. agh. why?! -_- darn them. but yeah, going out to lunch friday was the best thing i could of done. after a while i was able to snap out of it and i had a good time :) i haven't gone out to lunch with my girls in a long time. and i probably won't be able to again either. my mom just had a talk with me tonight about money. which apparently, we have very little of again. *sigh* we're behind on the mortgage and my mom has about $40 right now. period. and bob doesn't have anything coming in. and that job my mom got interviewed for about 4 weeks ago still hasn't given her an answer. she asked me tonight why she couldn't hold a job down, and honestly? i couldn't give her a real answer. bleh.
like i said earlier though, happy post coming. just had to get this over with
on friday they had this crash assembly during school for the seniors and juniors cause prom was the next day so they were trying to discourage kids from drinking and driving. honestly? i'm glad they had it. not necessarily glad for me, but because i'm glad that the police and firemen and everyone took time out of their lives to try to help students. so basically this crash assmebly was acting out a crash scene on the way home from prom. they had police, fire trucks, ambulances, equipment, the works. of course there were idiots in back making fun of everything. and most people it totally didnt even affect. most of my friends i'm happy to say were at least respectful and didn't say or laugh at any of it. i mean it may be badly acted out, but that's just rude and very disrepectful in my eyes. idk why the darn scene affected me so much. i came close to crying during it. well i know it had to do with putting me in their shoes, which i know i shouldn't do. but they had a mother up there screaming cuse in the scene her son was unconscious and now paralyzed. and the one thing that would not leave my mind is anthony. he drives drunk, a lot. and he honestly thinks it's okay. he keeps telling me that, and i want so badly to believe him, but i know i can't and never will. there's always that ONE time, and i'm afraid that one time will end up something like that scene, and from what i saw, it scares the crap out of me. i don't know what to do. and then i imagined if that mom had been my mom, omg. seriously, idk if she could survive something like that. and then after all that, i had to go and take a physics test. screw that. i wasn't in a very good mood for the rest of the day. i really didn't want to do anything. but then melanie invited me to lunch, and i accepted. idk why, i think mainly i wanted to snap out of the mood i was in, which i know going home wouldn't of helped. my mom would of just tried to figure out what was wrong and it would have been ultimately unavoidable. i still haven't told her about the assembly. oh and to top it off, they played sad music during the scenes. and THEY USED EVANESCENE. agh. why?! -_- darn them. but yeah, going out to lunch friday was the best thing i could of done. after a while i was able to snap out of it and i had a good time :) i haven't gone out to lunch with my girls in a long time. and i probably won't be able to again either. my mom just had a talk with me tonight about money. which apparently, we have very little of again. *sigh* we're behind on the mortgage and my mom has about $40 right now. period. and bob doesn't have anything coming in. and that job my mom got interviewed for about 4 weeks ago still hasn't given her an answer. she asked me tonight why she couldn't hold a job down, and honestly? i couldn't give her a real answer. bleh.
like i said earlier though, happy post coming. just had to get this over with