Why? Oh my god, I am such a damn woos!!!

[cocainexdreams]

Okay, I had my perfect speech to tell James (the guy I like) that I like him, but damn me for not saying anything! I had so many perfect chances, like after lunch he walked me to my class and I was going to just tell him, but never did! I will tomorrow thoug, if I don't I know I will regret it. I will just tell him. I guess today he had something for me that he forgot. I wonder what, I mean I can't think of anything that I have talked about that he would get for me. We hugged a lot today, like instead of saying "hi" everytime we passed by eachother he gave me a hug. I just wish I would have told him today, I am so disapointed in myself for not. I am soo doing it tomorrow. The reason I freak out is because this is the first major time I have ever told a guy I like him. Which is a pretty big deal because I am kind of really shy that way.

And what have I got to lose? I mean there is two days left of school including tomorrow. If things turn out bad and I don't get what I thought I would have then there is only one day of awkwardness to upstand. And if it turns out great then woot! We got a whole summer to be together and hang out. Well, I should go. Before I really flip.

-April