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I am over it.
I don't want to be in love. I no longer seeking somethingso passionatly and desperatly to only find myself left with more destruction than what's good for me.
I can't put myself through it anymore.
I have too big a heart. I care too much.
I am going to let go and close up.
I don't trust esily anymore.
I don't fall easily anymore.
I don't want to try anymore.
It only took a series of boys to make me get to this point one person to make it final.
I know this sound out of sorts, but I know what i'm talking about.
Maybe one day, I will be able to be ready again
to love and be loved
but i have come to a revelation, tht right now until i'm not sure when, I will remain alone.
I want to learn how to make myself happy and be able to be happy because of that alone, not due to anyone else.
I never thought i'd say this, but I am starting to believing there is no real love.
:/
I don't want to be in love. I no longer seeking somethingso passionatly and desperatly to only find myself left with more destruction than what's good for me.
I can't put myself through it anymore.
I have too big a heart. I care too much.
I am going to let go and close up.
I don't trust esily anymore.
I don't fall easily anymore.
I don't want to try anymore.
It only took a series of boys to make me get to this point one person to make it final.
I know this sound out of sorts, but I know what i'm talking about.
Maybe one day, I will be able to be ready again
to love and be loved
but i have come to a revelation, tht right now until i'm not sure when, I will remain alone.
I want to learn how to make myself happy and be able to be happy because of that alone, not due to anyone else.
I never thought i'd say this, but I am starting to believing there is no real love.
:/