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Hey out there!!!!! I'm going to be really busy writing research paper for the next six weeks or so, so I won't be able to update too often. However, today I am having issues and need to get them out.
As most of you already know, my dad and I don't communicate well and often argue over nothing. Just a little while ago I got really upset over something that is positively STUPID, but please bear with me. My dad keeps asking me when my last day of school is, he has poor short term memory, and I keep telling him it's May 23rd. Well, this time he said, "That's only 6 weeks from now." and I replied "Yeah but it's a really busy six weeks." back to him "But it'll fly by. Do you really have any work left?" I say "I have two research papers to write, along with regular work and graduation stuff." And again all he says is "But after 6 weeks it's over. After that you are on to bigger and better things." For some reason this made me want to cry. I guess I feel like he has no idea who I am or what my life is like. Worse than that, he doesn't care. I really want to go to college and get away from him, but at the same time I don't want him to not know me at all.
He always acts like he understands everything (and I mean everything, when Erin was pregnant with Levi, he thought he was an OBGYN and gave advice like one), yet he doesn't know me at all. My mom and I were teasing him about it yesterday when he wanted to have a plain old BBQ as my graduation party. I said I wanted something more me and that I don't like the outdoors very much. He just joked "One good fishing trip will fix that." Like I'm broken. He thinks all girls are like Erin, who goes camping, hunting, and fishing, but I'm just not like that at all. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with doing what Erin likes to do, but it's probably not what most people think of when they think of a "girl". My dad thinks that regular girls are like Erin and that I have a problem. Maybe he's just confused because Erin came first and she's a lot older than me. I guess he got used to her before I developed my girly personality. (I played softball ages 5-14) After that I discovered the mall.
Thanks for reading!
As most of you already know, my dad and I don't communicate well and often argue over nothing. Just a little while ago I got really upset over something that is positively STUPID, but please bear with me. My dad keeps asking me when my last day of school is, he has poor short term memory, and I keep telling him it's May 23rd. Well, this time he said, "That's only 6 weeks from now." and I replied "Yeah but it's a really busy six weeks." back to him "But it'll fly by. Do you really have any work left?" I say "I have two research papers to write, along with regular work and graduation stuff." And again all he says is "But after 6 weeks it's over. After that you are on to bigger and better things." For some reason this made me want to cry. I guess I feel like he has no idea who I am or what my life is like. Worse than that, he doesn't care. I really want to go to college and get away from him, but at the same time I don't want him to not know me at all.
He always acts like he understands everything (and I mean everything, when Erin was pregnant with Levi, he thought he was an OBGYN and gave advice like one), yet he doesn't know me at all. My mom and I were teasing him about it yesterday when he wanted to have a plain old BBQ as my graduation party. I said I wanted something more me and that I don't like the outdoors very much. He just joked "One good fishing trip will fix that." Like I'm broken. He thinks all girls are like Erin, who goes camping, hunting, and fishing, but I'm just not like that at all. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with doing what Erin likes to do, but it's probably not what most people think of when they think of a "girl". My dad thinks that regular girls are like Erin and that I have a problem. Maybe he's just confused because Erin came first and she's a lot older than me. I guess he got used to her before I developed my girly personality. (I played softball ages 5-14) After that I discovered the mall.
Thanks for reading!