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- oh i realized i wasn't done. so i typed a bunch of things and posting them probably would have resulted in a seizure, for someone, probably me, so into the real journal they go, and a state of deletion here. except for one bit, because amputations always leave a little something for referential purposes.
my dreams are disturbing. i can't begin to tell you how unhappy they make me, either because i'm seeing things i've lost, understanding tragedy, or experiencing something so so good and so impossible. i want to not think.
and now that i've cleared that up, i'll mention i went for a bicycle ride and that was great except for how hard it still is, and the pounding is remarkable and almost painful. and i'm on the verge of wheezing. my doctors say i have allergies and i never really believed them or noticed anything, except monumental quantities of snot, but yeah, i guess i do. i just need to exercise more, and that'll tone it down, both counts. though here's the interesting thing: when i'm really goin', my left ear hurts, in an infectioney sort of way; for as long as my heart rate is elevated it pounds. whatever it is, if it doesn't change in a week, i'll do something about it. i am tired of this, and other things, but as long as i'm feeling like i'm almost in a good mood, i'll say it's no big deal. i feel better, endorphinnns...i should go to sleep before they wear off. or go for another ride. ...
it's time for me to join a gym. i just need to find one with a pool... pool is a strange word, stranger the more times you say it. like duck. though maybe i don't need a gym, just a pool. and i can focus on more aerobic things utilizing the great outdoors... yeah i'm going to find a gym. any recommendations? anyone? seattle area's ok too. or issaquah, redmond, anything reasonably close. or anything you've seen even if you've never checked it out.
so, apparently drinking is good for you? not just red wine? any drink a day? look it up.
also, PICTURES, gimme. i want more and more and more. if you feel like it, tell me your favorites and why. that's the important part. i don't paint something just because i like it. i can but it's not so enjoyable.
my dreams are disturbing. i can't begin to tell you how unhappy they make me, either because i'm seeing things i've lost, understanding tragedy, or experiencing something so so good and so impossible. i want to not think.
and now that i've cleared that up, i'll mention i went for a bicycle ride and that was great except for how hard it still is, and the pounding is remarkable and almost painful. and i'm on the verge of wheezing. my doctors say i have allergies and i never really believed them or noticed anything, except monumental quantities of snot, but yeah, i guess i do. i just need to exercise more, and that'll tone it down, both counts. though here's the interesting thing: when i'm really goin', my left ear hurts, in an infectioney sort of way; for as long as my heart rate is elevated it pounds. whatever it is, if it doesn't change in a week, i'll do something about it. i am tired of this, and other things, but as long as i'm feeling like i'm almost in a good mood, i'll say it's no big deal. i feel better, endorphinnns...i should go to sleep before they wear off. or go for another ride. ...
it's time for me to join a gym. i just need to find one with a pool... pool is a strange word, stranger the more times you say it. like duck. though maybe i don't need a gym, just a pool. and i can focus on more aerobic things utilizing the great outdoors... yeah i'm going to find a gym. any recommendations? anyone? seattle area's ok too. or issaquah, redmond, anything reasonably close. or anything you've seen even if you've never checked it out.
so, apparently drinking is good for you? not just red wine? any drink a day? look it up.
also, PICTURES, gimme. i want more and more and more. if you feel like it, tell me your favorites and why. that's the important part. i don't paint something just because i like it. i can but it's not so enjoyable.