scares me when i'm in an honestly good mood
someday i'll live way out there, doing all the things i love. they are small things, real things. it's a real goal. i'll have room to move about.
i haven't had any coffee since wednesday. go me! though i've had caffeine...chai, you clever devil.
i'm sick of overpriced shitty corporate food. it's all chemicals. it's everywhere.
this post should be pretty blah since i spilled all the good stuff somewhere else.
i think, for the first identifiable time in my life, i have had actual heartburn. damnit. my meds are harsh, stress is even worse. but lovely tums fixed it and it should go away along with the medicine. maybe that's what all the stomach upset is, mild heartburn. or stomach ulcers, who knows. but this evening it actually burned. probably because the night before last i was throwing up for a decent length of time. cute huh.
i am trying to share the exciting bits of my life, so deal XD
but oh i sound so negative and sarcastic ~ don't take it that way. written language can be so misleading. tonight i am hopeful, cheered, intrigued, and feeling energetic. my stomach's on the flip, and my sinuses want to start something, but i feel good. the mixture is pleasing; i don't even want to explain that. i'm tired too, but it feels so natural at the moment. not that freaky drowsy fatigue from the last ...few months. and a few hours ago.
i read today, looked at two new books, got donuts, got hot chocolate, didn't overdo the sugar for once in my life, read more...a good day. feels like a holiday. like a real weekend. what's going on that i feel like i haven't had weekends?
ach i don't have a point tonight. i feel 12. that's a good thing. my worry is that its going to trick me, and i'll have to pay for it. well fine. you do that, body. little bastard.
btw,
sometimes i feel like i'm married to my cat.
i haven't had any coffee since wednesday. go me! though i've had caffeine...chai, you clever devil.
i'm sick of overpriced shitty corporate food. it's all chemicals. it's everywhere.
this post should be pretty blah since i spilled all the good stuff somewhere else.
i think, for the first identifiable time in my life, i have had actual heartburn. damnit. my meds are harsh, stress is even worse. but lovely tums fixed it and it should go away along with the medicine. maybe that's what all the stomach upset is, mild heartburn. or stomach ulcers, who knows. but this evening it actually burned. probably because the night before last i was throwing up for a decent length of time. cute huh.
i am trying to share the exciting bits of my life, so deal XD
but oh i sound so negative and sarcastic ~ don't take it that way. written language can be so misleading. tonight i am hopeful, cheered, intrigued, and feeling energetic. my stomach's on the flip, and my sinuses want to start something, but i feel good. the mixture is pleasing; i don't even want to explain that. i'm tired too, but it feels so natural at the moment. not that freaky drowsy fatigue from the last ...few months. and a few hours ago.
i read today, looked at two new books, got donuts, got hot chocolate, didn't overdo the sugar for once in my life, read more...a good day. feels like a holiday. like a real weekend. what's going on that i feel like i haven't had weekends?
ach i don't have a point tonight. i feel 12. that's a good thing. my worry is that its going to trick me, and i'll have to pay for it. well fine. you do that, body. little bastard.
btw,
sometimes i feel like i'm married to my cat.