feelings suck.
why am i so good at screwing up relationships?
i get scared far too easily. i'm insecure about myself. i can't handle focusing all my attention on one person. i refuse to be in a long distance relationship. i dont handle emotions well. i hate feeling vulnerable. i dont like to talk about my feelings. i dont like public displays of affection. i hate being cute and sappy. i generally get over issues quite easily, which makes me seem heartless. i hate sleeping close to someone. i need my space. i cant hold hands for very long. when im in a large group of people, i will tend to focus more on the friends than on the girlfriend.
i just can't handle relationships..
but then why do i want all of that so much?
i've been doing a lot of thinking about past relationships. i've made so many mistakes. wish i could change everything. but, i think about it, and i know that if i were to back in time, even with the knowledge i have now, i'd still end up making the same decisions. why am i so screwed up? am i ever going to find that one girl who can handle the mess that i am?
i can't even begin to express how much i want a relationship right now. lately, i'm nothing but ridiculously lonely. but because of the fact that i suck at all of this, it's just never going to happen for me..
i get scared far too easily. i'm insecure about myself. i can't handle focusing all my attention on one person. i refuse to be in a long distance relationship. i dont handle emotions well. i hate feeling vulnerable. i dont like to talk about my feelings. i dont like public displays of affection. i hate being cute and sappy. i generally get over issues quite easily, which makes me seem heartless. i hate sleeping close to someone. i need my space. i cant hold hands for very long. when im in a large group of people, i will tend to focus more on the friends than on the girlfriend.
i just can't handle relationships..
but then why do i want all of that so much?
i've been doing a lot of thinking about past relationships. i've made so many mistakes. wish i could change everything. but, i think about it, and i know that if i were to back in time, even with the knowledge i have now, i'd still end up making the same decisions. why am i so screwed up? am i ever going to find that one girl who can handle the mess that i am?
i can't even begin to express how much i want a relationship right now. lately, i'm nothing but ridiculously lonely. but because of the fact that i suck at all of this, it's just never going to happen for me..