It just takes one pitfall
... to take away so many things.
And that pitfall itself is highly questionable.
:( I feel like I've been convicted of some crime I never commited.
Why is it that almost everything related to HC must be so difficult for me? Everything has to go wrong and I would always have to take a huge detour and make tremendous efforts to redeem myself. Seriously, almost everything! I know right now as I have everything I could ever wished for I shouldn't be angry at HC or anything or anyone in particular already, but isn't it just plain exasperating how organization, people or the rigidly-set boundful of rules and regulations can be so disrespectful of one's strength, efforts and results?
"Perhaps you don't meet some of our criteria. "
HAHA.
Haiz. Objectively, yes.
Sorry, I'm just sad the one pitfall still haunts me a year and a half from when it first cast its shadow over me. I thought I've come out of it when I received the rest of my A Levels results, but it got to me again during PSC scholarship selection. I thought it would be over when I'm done with scholarship stuff, but obviously now it's here again. When can I see the end of it? It seems as long as I stay in the system in Singapore I can never come out of it. Everyone's just fixated with strict criteria, strict criteria, stricter criteria. Have a D on your cert, deserve nothing.
Have 8 other Distinctions? Heh, big deal. We have plenty of perfect scorers in Singapore.
Just a concoction: What if when I'm back from overseas, with the degree and PhD I hopefully completed smoothly, the first thing I hear is I cannot be given a certain rank of job or I cannot be given a higher amount of pay because guess what? I have a D on my A Levels cert.
I may vomit.
Actually I know I probably shouldn't be angsting over such a small thing. I'm just unhappy that all these happenings seem to deliberately snuff out all my shine and flatten me into this very bian3 thing that people look down on all the time. And even after A Levels results, I don't seem to be able to redeem my somewhat messed up image in front of HC.
Guess things just can't be helped.
:) I feel better after writing.
Trivial stuff. Lol... I should just forgive and forget, esp since I'm such a blessed person now with what I have. :)
And that pitfall itself is highly questionable.
:( I feel like I've been convicted of some crime I never commited.
Why is it that almost everything related to HC must be so difficult for me? Everything has to go wrong and I would always have to take a huge detour and make tremendous efforts to redeem myself. Seriously, almost everything! I know right now as I have everything I could ever wished for I shouldn't be angry at HC or anything or anyone in particular already, but isn't it just plain exasperating how organization, people or the rigidly-set boundful of rules and regulations can be so disrespectful of one's strength, efforts and results?
"Perhaps you don't meet some of our criteria. "
HAHA.
Haiz. Objectively, yes.
Sorry, I'm just sad the one pitfall still haunts me a year and a half from when it first cast its shadow over me. I thought I've come out of it when I received the rest of my A Levels results, but it got to me again during PSC scholarship selection. I thought it would be over when I'm done with scholarship stuff, but obviously now it's here again. When can I see the end of it? It seems as long as I stay in the system in Singapore I can never come out of it. Everyone's just fixated with strict criteria, strict criteria, stricter criteria. Have a D on your cert, deserve nothing.
Have 8 other Distinctions? Heh, big deal. We have plenty of perfect scorers in Singapore.
Just a concoction: What if when I'm back from overseas, with the degree and PhD I hopefully completed smoothly, the first thing I hear is I cannot be given a certain rank of job or I cannot be given a higher amount of pay because guess what? I have a D on my A Levels cert.
I may vomit.
Actually I know I probably shouldn't be angsting over such a small thing. I'm just unhappy that all these happenings seem to deliberately snuff out all my shine and flatten me into this very bian3 thing that people look down on all the time. And even after A Levels results, I don't seem to be able to redeem my somewhat messed up image in front of HC.
Guess things just can't be helped.
:) I feel better after writing.
Trivial stuff. Lol... I should just forgive and forget, esp since I'm such a blessed person now with what I have. :)