Blog about CO (1)
For those people who are tired of reading me go on and on about CO as if there's nothing else in my life can stop reading right now, for this entry will be dedicated to CO yet again. It's probably one of the last times there will be a post on CO on my blog anyway. After 6 years being in it, this is the night before my final performance, the end of which would finally draw the curtains upon my CO life.
I tried imagining how it would be like if:
1. I didn't bug Ms Chang every day for 2 weeks to get a transfer into CO 6 years ago
2. I didn't muster the bullskin to go for CO prac when my transfer wasn't even processed
3. I didn't choose dizi as my instrument, but what I had wanted all along before I stepped into NYCO - Erhu
4. I didn't get invited into the dizi yahoo group by Mei Xin
5. I didn't take lessons from Yin Lao Shi
6. I didn't go for the CO camps
7. I didn't decide to stay in CO in JC, despite the very luring incentives of running for council
8. I didn't choose to participate in SYF to focus solely on preparing for A levels
And I got these:
1. I won't know yet how to play an instrument
2. I won't get to know so many great people
3. I won't gain a deeper understanding of what is meant by dedication and passion
People always say there's no ifs in history, and the only reason I would assume these outcomes to be undesirable is I have not, and possess not the ability to have, considered the infinite possibilities of how my life (so far) would have turned out should I have chosen otherwise and the probably equal amount of pleasure they could bring. Sure, I could have been equally happy and satisfied joining some other CCA (or none at all), meeting other people, and putting my time and effort into other things. Perhaps at critical junctures, like when rechoosing CCAs at the start of JC1, I should have made more practical choices which would probably land me in a better position for getting scholarships/university admissions/ adapting to different social settings. But for now, I'm happily blinkered from all these "perhaps". I'm happy that at all the moments of decision, I have firmly chosen CO.
Today's sectionals was one of the most enjoyable! Jaime, Daoteng, Qi Yu and I sat down for the first time to play dizi songs together. For the first time this year, happiness in coming for CO came from blowing dizi itself instead of talking with sectionmates. It's a pity we hadn't started this earlier, but now is better than never. I'm glad it happened, and we're going to do it again tmr!
To those who find this frivolous, in sight of the nearing A levels, let's just say that this is a phase that is going to pass very very soon. CO is important to me and I want to end it nicely. So let me be frivolous and enjoy it for just one more day.
I tried imagining how it would be like if:
1. I didn't bug Ms Chang every day for 2 weeks to get a transfer into CO 6 years ago
2. I didn't muster the bullskin to go for CO prac when my transfer wasn't even processed
3. I didn't choose dizi as my instrument, but what I had wanted all along before I stepped into NYCO - Erhu
4. I didn't get invited into the dizi yahoo group by Mei Xin
5. I didn't take lessons from Yin Lao Shi
6. I didn't go for the CO camps
7. I didn't decide to stay in CO in JC, despite the very luring incentives of running for council
8. I didn't choose to participate in SYF to focus solely on preparing for A levels
And I got these:
1. I won't know yet how to play an instrument
2. I won't get to know so many great people
3. I won't gain a deeper understanding of what is meant by dedication and passion
People always say there's no ifs in history, and the only reason I would assume these outcomes to be undesirable is I have not, and possess not the ability to have, considered the infinite possibilities of how my life (so far) would have turned out should I have chosen otherwise and the probably equal amount of pleasure they could bring. Sure, I could have been equally happy and satisfied joining some other CCA (or none at all), meeting other people, and putting my time and effort into other things. Perhaps at critical junctures, like when rechoosing CCAs at the start of JC1, I should have made more practical choices which would probably land me in a better position for getting scholarships/university admissions/ adapting to different social settings. But for now, I'm happily blinkered from all these "perhaps". I'm happy that at all the moments of decision, I have firmly chosen CO.
Today's sectionals was one of the most enjoyable! Jaime, Daoteng, Qi Yu and I sat down for the first time to play dizi songs together. For the first time this year, happiness in coming for CO came from blowing dizi itself instead of talking with sectionmates. It's a pity we hadn't started this earlier, but now is better than never. I'm glad it happened, and we're going to do it again tmr!
To those who find this frivolous, in sight of the nearing A levels, let's just say that this is a phase that is going to pass very very soon. CO is important to me and I want to end it nicely. So let me be frivolous and enjoy it for just one more day.