Finally relearning the art of breathing
If youre strong you live in the world you choose to create; if not, then your world creates you. Im finally learning to live in the present. Ive been stuck on the past and trying to plan the future for too long. I wish I had the power to make time stand still so that I could give my self a lifetime of education in a day. Im on a quest for knowledge. My fear is that I wont live long enough to learn everything I want. And I wont. No one will ever learn everything. Ever. And that is what I am seeking. An impossible goal. But arent we all? The answer to that is no. Not everyone is. That's why I feel lonely at times. The friends I have are wonderful, intelligent people all in their own unique ways. But I find myself judging everyone else. Sizing them up and catagorizing them in my mind. Most falling under the one labeled SHEEP. What makes me any different though? What is that certain something that sets me apart? The admiration and quick fondness for those who strive to be different? How different am I though? I dont know yet. Im still getting to know myself. I am 19 years old and I have no close friends that are my own age. I love the company of those that I feel I can gain knowledge from and only hope that I may absorb enough from other sources so that I may gain that same respect and interest. Summer is almost here. I look forward to the days of swimming pools and reading on blankets outdoors. And I hope that I can arrange a few camping trips this summer as well. I want to go to the Pagon Festival in May and also the Rainbow Family is going to be in Floyd,Va this year in July; so, anyone with information regarding the exact dates of those events, let me know asap.