some thins just arent ment to be..

[cmetsparky]

god damn her!! i hate channing. i just ahh... all she ever does is talk shit to me. i swear i wish i could hit her some times, well yea she called me and left some retarted message on my phone. ahh... she alwase has to try and start shit with me...i just wish i had it in me to fight back for once. im too fucking kind!!! thats what it is. just to kind or forgiving.im a weakling thats what it is. i cant do anything anymore. elise is startin shit agin and i didnt want to go into it but she still tried to and i just walked away. i know im supposed to kill people with kindness and shit, i mean i promissed penny i wouldnt fight but im tired of it! if someone says another damn thing im gonna snap.and i dont want to look like a jerk in front of anyone, i mean i dont like hurting people in the first place.yet agin im in trouble... elise told me that i pissed natt and them off by messin with the books and shit and now im gonna pay.i already got the shit beat out of me by them once with dowells and now the want to do this..well i was being a smart ass and told them to stop fucking around and do it already, you want me dead then go for it. i dunno, i cant tell micheal ann cuz shell freak, i gotta get fuzz to help. i mean i cant even breath right now, im not gonna be able to fight them, if i even do. sometimes i wish i did hit them in the face when i had the chance. stupid crypts, stupid gangs.my mind is all crazy... i had two things of x and m y mind is everywhere.i still dont know why i have so much of that shit. huh... haha...i dunno what to do anymore.im just gonna take what comes i guess. let fate guid me. haha....
what ever. im not single anymore!!! haha.. i ..i mean its awsome. shes not like everyone else. kool and collective and vrey beautiful. seductive..haha.she just.. i mean its the way she looks at me, how she smiles. everything. i cant stop smileing when im with her.haha.. she made this awsome comment about helpin with my ribs, the pain that is, i might hold her to it.. haha no. well.. maybe i dunno. i feel like were moving so fast, which is strange to me.. i hope im not russhing things!! am i??? aww man, maybe i should chill... i dunno what to do. aww man. hmm... ok well wnough of that. ill see her tomorrow!!!!