anger is more than an emotion.. its life
today has been good for the most part( majority rules) haha...but i cant breath. like it hurts to take a breath right now...seriously. steven was goofin around and streached my hand to far behind my back and all i heard was pop and i couldnt breath. i moved my rib, which i hurt bad, and well i just laid there for a minite trying to catch my breath and i still havnt. haha... i cant stop coughing!!!! ahh... this is gonna drive me crazy. i felt weird today, like i didnt belong anywhere, invisible i guess. i wrote this..
have you ever felt alone,
like theres no one in the world
who looks at you as you are?
blacker and blacker you become,
until you are no longer
what you used to be.
no one hears your pleeds
no one sees your sorrow
no one even knows you exist.
have you ever looked at someone
who is not looking right at you,
but right through you,
as if you are just a statue?
darker and darker you grow
until there is nothing left
for people to see.
no one hears your cries,
no one sees your pain,
no one knows your there
because to them you dont exist.
that one was strange but thats how i felt.then theres this one..
a voice from the south,
and a voice from the north
show me with hand and mouth
what evil is really made of.
spite and desire mold
to create me
so black and so bold,
it shatters every countenace.
with instink kills
and will without no shame
the orders it does fill
make it mephistopheles.
it churns in the bowls of hells pit
with soulstones and minions.
rising only when it sees fit
to darken earth and heven.
only when i do vanish
does earths reign end.
and we do wish,
it was never ment to be...
i am no longer
and nor do i wish
to be this person agin
ok enough of that. hmmmmmm.....i dont want to be home.. i mean id rather be at school with rachel. shes awsome, just awsome. she sat at lunch with me today!!! it was great.. haha i feel like a little kid around her. all exited but trying to hide it. i just had to see her today, just had to. i like being around her, i get so shakky like im cold but im not. and i keep smileing and turning red. ahh... haha. i dunno, i get to see her tommorrow!!!!!! yea, as bad as today has been its been great too. i found out i weigh 98 pounds now. and im like 30 pounds under weight. but i gotta get to 95 before race seasson or i cant cox, so i gotta lose it. it sucks cuz i am so hungry and im tired. i run a lot now and erg way to much...this is gonna drive me crazy. i cant wait till tomorrow. i want to see her, really bad. haha... lupis in fabula.
sparky
have you ever felt alone,
like theres no one in the world
who looks at you as you are?
blacker and blacker you become,
until you are no longer
what you used to be.
no one hears your pleeds
no one sees your sorrow
no one even knows you exist.
have you ever looked at someone
who is not looking right at you,
but right through you,
as if you are just a statue?
darker and darker you grow
until there is nothing left
for people to see.
no one hears your cries,
no one sees your pain,
no one knows your there
because to them you dont exist.
that one was strange but thats how i felt.then theres this one..
a voice from the south,
and a voice from the north
show me with hand and mouth
what evil is really made of.
spite and desire mold
to create me
so black and so bold,
it shatters every countenace.
with instink kills
and will without no shame
the orders it does fill
make it mephistopheles.
it churns in the bowls of hells pit
with soulstones and minions.
rising only when it sees fit
to darken earth and heven.
only when i do vanish
does earths reign end.
and we do wish,
it was never ment to be...
i am no longer
and nor do i wish
to be this person agin
ok enough of that. hmmmmmm.....i dont want to be home.. i mean id rather be at school with rachel. shes awsome, just awsome. she sat at lunch with me today!!! it was great.. haha i feel like a little kid around her. all exited but trying to hide it. i just had to see her today, just had to. i like being around her, i get so shakky like im cold but im not. and i keep smileing and turning red. ahh... haha. i dunno, i get to see her tommorrow!!!!!! yea, as bad as today has been its been great too. i found out i weigh 98 pounds now. and im like 30 pounds under weight. but i gotta get to 95 before race seasson or i cant cox, so i gotta lose it. it sucks cuz i am so hungry and im tired. i run a lot now and erg way to much...this is gonna drive me crazy. i cant wait till tomorrow. i want to see her, really bad. haha... lupis in fabula.
sparky