There is nothing more for me, need the end to set me free
I think I'm going to start writing in here more often. Probably nothing that anyone really wants to read, but that doesn't matter, journals are supposed to be for private thoughts and reflection. Hey, maybe it'll help me out a bit, worth a shot.
So it's almost time for school again, and once again, I've wasted a summer. There were a lot of things that I wanted to do, and very few that I actually did. Sure, I've been working all summer, and it's nice to make my own money. That's been about it, though. I wanted to get back into better shape, lose some weight, get more active again. I feel like I've slowly become more and more lazy, though. Thanks to that and my job, I'm fatter than ever, and I've come to hate the mirror. I need a new face, I need a new body. Hell, I need a new life.
I haven't been up to much lately. Hanging out with Kyle as usual, starting to hang out with J more, wishing I could hang out with Ashley more again. Don't get me wrong, Kyle's awesome, but we just don't do anything. We might drive around for an hour or so, but we always just end up lazing around, playing video games and the like, eating junk food. J's cool, but he's just not my type of person. I just want to hang out with Ashley and the old gang again, but it just doesn't happen. It would probably help if I didn't hate everyone for no real reason. *shrug* Maybe I should just move on like everyone else has.
In the ladies department... of course I'm still single, of course I'm nowhere close to being with someone. Doesn't help any that I'm lame and won't let myself get over Angelica, and that I long for Ashley, the one I can't have. I guess there are a few girls I kinda have my eye on.. but knowing me, it's going nowhere.
I should get my license before school starts, get my car, so I can start driving to school myself. Oh man, senior year. I'm not ready for college and life on my own, I'm too lazy and lack motivation. God, all the wasted potential in me. I probably could've been one of the top students in the school, one of the 'good-looking' kids, one of the jocks... didn't do a thing with what was given to me. Are you supposed to have these kind of thoughts at 16? I'm pathetic.
So it's almost time for school again, and once again, I've wasted a summer. There were a lot of things that I wanted to do, and very few that I actually did. Sure, I've been working all summer, and it's nice to make my own money. That's been about it, though. I wanted to get back into better shape, lose some weight, get more active again. I feel like I've slowly become more and more lazy, though. Thanks to that and my job, I'm fatter than ever, and I've come to hate the mirror. I need a new face, I need a new body. Hell, I need a new life.
I haven't been up to much lately. Hanging out with Kyle as usual, starting to hang out with J more, wishing I could hang out with Ashley more again. Don't get me wrong, Kyle's awesome, but we just don't do anything. We might drive around for an hour or so, but we always just end up lazing around, playing video games and the like, eating junk food. J's cool, but he's just not my type of person. I just want to hang out with Ashley and the old gang again, but it just doesn't happen. It would probably help if I didn't hate everyone for no real reason. *shrug* Maybe I should just move on like everyone else has.
In the ladies department... of course I'm still single, of course I'm nowhere close to being with someone. Doesn't help any that I'm lame and won't let myself get over Angelica, and that I long for Ashley, the one I can't have. I guess there are a few girls I kinda have my eye on.. but knowing me, it's going nowhere.
I should get my license before school starts, get my car, so I can start driving to school myself. Oh man, senior year. I'm not ready for college and life on my own, I'm too lazy and lack motivation. God, all the wasted potential in me. I probably could've been one of the top students in the school, one of the 'good-looking' kids, one of the jocks... didn't do a thing with what was given to me. Are you supposed to have these kind of thoughts at 16? I'm pathetic.