I am so upset

Mar 07, 2005 07:06

We all knew that Ryan is a bit strange, but now I know for sure that he really has a problem! Ryan is doing "things" that are not normal behavior for anyone, of any age and I don't know why. Don't get me wrong, he's not perverted, gay or other wise afflicted in a sexually defunct manner. But he has shown me a pattern of behavior, along the lines ( Read more... )

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lilangelgurl011 March 7 2005, 18:16:46 UTC
I'm not exacatly sure whats going on here and thats fine cuz its none of my buisness, but I do want you to know that its not your fault. You can do so much and from what I've seen you've been an amazing mom to him. Once he gets to a certain age he needs to start experiencing life for himself, the good and the bad. He needs to learn for himself whatever it is that he is doing is wrong. Trust me he's still a good kid, just going through a rocky time. And you've helped to make him the good kid he is. You need to somewhat accept the behavior and hope he realized what he's doing is wrong. Disowning him is not the answer, just let him know that you are disappointed but that you'll be there for him no matter what. And I know you will be there for him cuz you're an amazing him to him and an amazing friend. Things will get better, it just may take time.

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sick_cycle05 March 7 2005, 20:03:44 UTC
mom, ive been pacing for the past couple of hours debating whether or not to call you. every bone in my body wants to just pick up the phone and talk but every bone also knows that a huge yelling match will definately ensue. i guess i will have to be as blunt as possible with what i have to say, respecting your wishes to not make every detail known. that should be the easy part for i am not entirely certain i know exactly what is going on right now. i do know that yes, i have lied to you on many occasion and i am aware that that is bad. im not a narcissistic liar, i am aware that when i lie it hurts people which is why ive tried so hard over the years to change that aspect of my personality. you may view it as a failed attempt but i see otherwise. ive chased so many friends away with my old ways and i desperately wished for that to stop so i committed myself to change. i believe ive succeeded to a certain extent. im not going to stand here and say that i never lie because that would just be a lie. i dont quite know how to say this but ( ... )

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clydeclyde March 8 2005, 01:39:50 UTC
You still don't understand that what you do is wrong, do you? You lie to me because it is easier? So you hide it in the shed? That is suppose to be OK? That's "Johann" like. That is what's so weird. And not mailing my bills on time. That too is OK? It's OK if you don't feel like doing that little thing, stopping at the Post Office, for me. No, that's OK to screw up Mom's credit rating and incur tons of late fees on all of her bills...sure that's fine.
Well, you just bought yourself a nice new blue blanket that cost you $60 for your procrastinating personality - that YOU think is just OK, because that's just who you are. I'm so proud. I've raised a lazy, procrastinating fool who can't even tell the difference between what is important and what ACTUALLY CAN BE put off until tomorrow!

Make sure you return with that $60 and find yourself a ride home from the airport because I really cannot drive now with the change in my meds. Oh, and by the way -- that's doing fine, in case you might be interested in how I'm feeling.

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sick_cycle05 March 8 2005, 15:07:34 UTC
i know that i am somewhat of a procrastiating liar. i have done those things in the past, and i understand that pattern has made you pissed off. i think that the main issue that we have to discuss here is my procrastination. without my doing that, there would be no need to lie to you about anything, and there would be nothing that would not be done...adding tension to our relationship. i love you, i know that you having problems with the pills and pain. i wish that i could take that all away from you and then we would be able to be a very happy family. nothing that you have done in my upbringing has made me into the procrastinator i am. that was something that i picked up on my own because it was easier. and because nothing has happened in the past that has forced me to change, i have stayed with the easy route. now that i have it so burnt into my personality, it will be harder to change. i will do it. i care about you more then being lazy at times, and therefore will strive to change the behavior. i know that lying is a huge problem ( ... )

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clydeclyde March 10 2005, 15:20:33 UTC
FYI

by the way, there was a "Post it" on the blanket - the post it ended up in the shed too.

We'll have lots to work on before you begin Clark. Which is in only a few weeks!!!

Love,
Mom

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