I am so upset

[clydeclyde]

We all knew that Ryan is a bit strange, but now I know for sure that he really has a problem! Ryan is doing "things" that are not normal behavior for anyone, of any age and I don't know why. Don't get me wrong, he's not perverted, gay or other wise afflicted in a sexually defunct manner. But he has shown me a pattern of behavior, along the lines

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[sick_cycle05]

i know that i am somewhat of a procrastiating liar. i have done those things in the past, and i understand that pattern has made you pissed off. i think that the main issue that we have to discuss here is my procrastination. without my doing that, there would be no need to lie to you about anything, and there would be nothing that would not be done...adding tension to our relationship. i love you, i know that you having problems with the pills and pain. i wish that i could take that all away from you and then we would be able to be a very happy family. nothing that you have done in my upbringing has made me into the procrastinator i am. that was something that i picked up on my own because it was easier. and because nothing has happened in the past that has forced me to change, i have stayed with the easy route. now that i have it so burnt into my personality, it will be harder to change. i will do it. i care about you more then being lazy at times, and therefore will strive to change the behavior. i know that lying is a huge problem, but i think that also stems from my procrastination. however, after i procrastinate and you yell, it makes me never want to have an agument or disagreement with you, and therefore, i lie about it. i am sorry. if you can help me that would make everything alot easier. if you just have a huge problem with this right now, before i come back from Germany....then i have no time to try and change. You are a key, and an anchor to my life. one of the things that i think would really help is a reminder. post it notes would really help me, i seem to do everything that you want me to do when it is placed on a post it. i know it seems a little childish and that i should be old enough to not have to rely on lists in order to get things done but when i just committ it to memory, i tend to put things off and do them out of order...in turn forgetting something along the way.

and dont think i dont care about the pain and suffering you are going through. im very happy to hear that the meds are working on making you feel somewhat better and i hope the transitional part of the changing of the meds is going good.

love,
ryan

[clydeclyde]

FYI

by the way, there was a "Post it" on the blanket - the post it ended up in the shed too.

We'll have lots to work on before you begin Clark. Which is in only a few weeks!!!

Love,
Mom