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Okay, so I hopefully find out soon whether or not I am able to see Ryan for his graduation in March. Ughhh. I just worry about what if my parents don't let me go. I have thought about carving Ryan on my hip just to kinda say f-ck you to my parents. I have even thought about going to the store to get some new blades. Mine are kind of dull now and don't do a whole lot! It sucks. Then, this morning I was going insane. Well, it was 1 in the morning and I couldn't sleep. I wanted to cut so badly and I couldn't seem to find any of my tools. I am so pissed. I hid them because my sister came in my room earlier that day and I don't remember where I put them!!! OMG, I am gonna go nuts right now. I just want to see blood and I have this problem with only using MY tools. I can't just go grab a knife and do it. I'm not sure why...I just want MY things. Am I the only one that is like that??? I don't really know what I am doing. I'm just going insane right now and don't know what I'm doing. HELP...SOMEONE!!! Before I go nuts and if you could find my tools that would be great too..lol.