Lotte
so it's been about 18 months from the last time i've posted on here and so much has changed in my live and i find that i need to write about it... i talk about it with friends and family but i'm worried they are going to get super sick of me talking about it and well it's a HUGE part of my life now as in some ways i'm jumping off cliffs for it... on feb 28 this year i had a baby girl with my husband... Charlotte Grace... we call her Lotte for short... she's wonderful and perfect in every way...
so i'm quitting work so i can stay home with her at least for the 1st year... but i'm sure it will be longer before i even think of going full time at someplace... i'm still on leave so i haven't had the chance to put in my two weeks yet... but they've known for months i wasn't coming back as they've talked to me that even if i'm leaving i still need to improve myself and help with group task and ect... in other words still give at least 100%... like i've ever done less... me and my husband have been getting everything ready for us to have the cut in income... soon cutting more so we can work on saving for other things we want to do... it will be odd at 1st with some of our cuts... for the 1st time in about 25 years i won't have cable tv... but the net gives us almost all of our shows we watch... so we'll take that 100+ savings... we've already cut the house phone,but can't cut the cell bill any... we love our smartphones... besides we've got phones on the account for both of my parents... it's my way of making sure that are ok with them both being old and not in the best of health...
So now that i've got the baby we've been working on for 2+ years it's odd... we know we want a few more to go with her... hell my husband who was never around a child til Lotte has joked about going for number 2 later this year... i've already said NO... i want her to be at least a year old before we go for number 2... but we do have the pressure to get started soon because all my in laws wanted a boy but me and my husband.. we wanted healthy and alive... after what i went thur 11 years ago this is truly a blessing... i had an easy pregnancy for the most part... lots of test and extra appointments due to the miscarriage but she stayed where she needed to... matter of fact she didn't want to come out... she was taken by c section due to the fact she didn't want to come out... she looks so much like her daddy... we just hope for my eyes... that's what we said our perfect daughter would look like his hair and eye lashes (long and dark) with my eyes... so far she's got them but we have to wait to see if the eyes stay...
as far as everyone wanting a boy, i hate to say it but it shows... my father in law couldn't be bothered to see her till i screamed and yelled and called him out for the shitty parent he is... then as he's holding her when she's almost 2 weeks old he goes on to talk about how she should of been a boy, that boys are better blah blah blah... it pissed me off... this is his 1st grandchild and my husband knows i have no issues not letting them see her... as i've said you treat her right or you don't see her... gotta love the fact WI has no grandparent's rights laws... besides my husband knows i'd move if it was best for her or any of my children... my family they all love her and have made the long drive to see her... hell my mom came up before she was born to make sure she was here for it... i wish my in laws loved on her like my family has... when my mom is here it's like i have a nanny or something i don't have to raise a finger for her... but my mom does know and understand that this is a gift and was something i didn't always want... after everything from the last time i wasn't sure if i'd ever have more... now i couldn't be happier... mind you it's 2am and i'm up writing because someone is gassy and doesn't want to sleep... but it's okay.... here's a picture of my Lotte Grace
so i'm quitting work so i can stay home with her at least for the 1st year... but i'm sure it will be longer before i even think of going full time at someplace... i'm still on leave so i haven't had the chance to put in my two weeks yet... but they've known for months i wasn't coming back as they've talked to me that even if i'm leaving i still need to improve myself and help with group task and ect... in other words still give at least 100%... like i've ever done less... me and my husband have been getting everything ready for us to have the cut in income... soon cutting more so we can work on saving for other things we want to do... it will be odd at 1st with some of our cuts... for the 1st time in about 25 years i won't have cable tv... but the net gives us almost all of our shows we watch... so we'll take that 100+ savings... we've already cut the house phone,but can't cut the cell bill any... we love our smartphones... besides we've got phones on the account for both of my parents... it's my way of making sure that are ok with them both being old and not in the best of health...
So now that i've got the baby we've been working on for 2+ years it's odd... we know we want a few more to go with her... hell my husband who was never around a child til Lotte has joked about going for number 2 later this year... i've already said NO... i want her to be at least a year old before we go for number 2... but we do have the pressure to get started soon because all my in laws wanted a boy but me and my husband.. we wanted healthy and alive... after what i went thur 11 years ago this is truly a blessing... i had an easy pregnancy for the most part... lots of test and extra appointments due to the miscarriage but she stayed where she needed to... matter of fact she didn't want to come out... she was taken by c section due to the fact she didn't want to come out... she looks so much like her daddy... we just hope for my eyes... that's what we said our perfect daughter would look like his hair and eye lashes (long and dark) with my eyes... so far she's got them but we have to wait to see if the eyes stay...
as far as everyone wanting a boy, i hate to say it but it shows... my father in law couldn't be bothered to see her till i screamed and yelled and called him out for the shitty parent he is... then as he's holding her when she's almost 2 weeks old he goes on to talk about how she should of been a boy, that boys are better blah blah blah... it pissed me off... this is his 1st grandchild and my husband knows i have no issues not letting them see her... as i've said you treat her right or you don't see her... gotta love the fact WI has no grandparent's rights laws... besides my husband knows i'd move if it was best for her or any of my children... my family they all love her and have made the long drive to see her... hell my mom came up before she was born to make sure she was here for it... i wish my in laws loved on her like my family has... when my mom is here it's like i have a nanny or something i don't have to raise a finger for her... but my mom does know and understand that this is a gift and was something i didn't always want... after everything from the last time i wasn't sure if i'd ever have more... now i couldn't be happier... mind you it's 2am and i'm up writing because someone is gassy and doesn't want to sleep... but it's okay.... here's a picture of my Lotte Grace