Things and Stuff
We went for lunch and had to leave two places due to there being too many people there before we settled at a place across the street from where we live. My mood is so out of wack. I am suppose to go to DSHS and make a psych. evaluation appointment. I was going to do it Thursday but chickened out. I was suppose to wake up this morning and do it then...but the thought of taking the bus down there overwhelms me in a major way. I feel pathetic and stupid and other unworthy things. I just know they are going cut of the disability (I go through this every 6 months) this time. This will be two years I've been on temporary disability and it's suppose to be temporary. Bah thinking about this makes my heart go into my chest and I get all overwhelmed again. I need to go on Monday. pugfantus says he's drive me there if that's what I need. He's so good to me. I don't deserve him really but for some reason he finds me entertaining and I like who I am when I'm with him.