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In the dream, I'm at a party before anything has ever gone wrong. My brothers and my friends (including some I haven't seen in years) are there, and even a couple of my exes, and everyone is impossibly young. The mountains in the distance are lovely and blue beyond a field of tall grass, and the sun is shining. I've realized I don't need to be upset with anyone here, because no one has done anything to this version of me. I don't need to feel sad, either, because nothing bad has ever happened. There is no complication. We're all just there, laughing and talking over each other and being silly. Someone I've stopped talking to in real life has just stepped out to get some stuff at the store, and I'm waiting for him to get back so I can be happy to see him one more time. My younger brother comes downstairs, and I'm looking at the rocky hillside out a window, and I say, "I've been away a long time." He gives me a weird look, because he doesn't know what that means. I hug him and then start crying, because I love everyone at this party so much, but I know I can't really stay. I cry myself awake.