:'(
So it broke. My knees trembled as my heart shattered and my eyes began to drown. I've always thought a boy would be the first to break my heart and so I kind of thought I was safe for now. I guess I was wrong.
There she was. She was sunk in a hospital bed with tubes from every which direction. Hospitals always smell a little funny to me but this room in particular had an interesting one. A smell that would turn the stomach to one side but not quite upside down. Or maybe it was the sight that made me weak-- maybe it was her. I sat down and softly grabbed her hand. Her fingertips had been pricked so many times that they were red and several of them were tipped with dried blood. It hurt me to see her like this. She opened her eyes and smiled a little. I bit my lip. It was a lame effort to keep from crying but for the meantime it would have to do. She asked how she looked and I mustered a weak smile to say she looked as wonderful as she always does. I asked her if she needed anything and she gave a deep sigh.
"I know you kids are busy but I just wanted you to know that I've been here waiting for you and I'm ready to come home."
I held my breath looking up at the ceiling and I flexed every muscle in my face. I tried concentrated breathing and I closed my eyes but despite my attempts to keep myself together it all fell apart. My little world, my broken heart.
There she was. She was sunk in a hospital bed with tubes from every which direction. Hospitals always smell a little funny to me but this room in particular had an interesting one. A smell that would turn the stomach to one side but not quite upside down. Or maybe it was the sight that made me weak-- maybe it was her. I sat down and softly grabbed her hand. Her fingertips had been pricked so many times that they were red and several of them were tipped with dried blood. It hurt me to see her like this. She opened her eyes and smiled a little. I bit my lip. It was a lame effort to keep from crying but for the meantime it would have to do. She asked how she looked and I mustered a weak smile to say she looked as wonderful as she always does. I asked her if she needed anything and she gave a deep sigh.
"I know you kids are busy but I just wanted you to know that I've been here waiting for you and I'm ready to come home."
I held my breath looking up at the ceiling and I flexed every muscle in my face. I tried concentrated breathing and I closed my eyes but despite my attempts to keep myself together it all fell apart. My little world, my broken heart.