Some stuff
My computer is fucked, pretty sure its the video card, so I guess I won't be on here for another week or so, or whenever the hell I figure out whats wrong with it. I'm at the computer lab, and have realized two things this past week: One is that, I am a REALLY shallow person. So much so that it took me a couple of YEARS to finally see past someones beauty, and realize they were never a very good friend to me at all. I wasted another couple of years on a girl that was never worth my time. Oh well, fuck it, I'm young right? No, not really. I'm almost 26 years old. I'm probably fucked on the relationship side of things, but you know, who cares, its actually been a nice week and a half, I'm actually thanking God that I FINALLY snapped out of it and realized what I needed to do. I've had some great times with a couple of good friends lately and its been nice, and I'm alot less stressed than I have been most of this year.
The second thing is the soulmate issue. I've never had one. If I did, then there should be a fuckin' book written about them, because there are certainly stipulations to it. If people actually DO find them, then they never stay for the rest of your life. You may have one for a little while, and then you drift apart, and a few years later you only find fragments of your soulmate left. It will never be the same again. Thats how it is for me. Perhaps I had one a long time ago, over five years ago, but she isn't one anymore, and shes not ever going to be again. Oh well. Fuck it.
The second thing is the soulmate issue. I've never had one. If I did, then there should be a fuckin' book written about them, because there are certainly stipulations to it. If people actually DO find them, then they never stay for the rest of your life. You may have one for a little while, and then you drift apart, and a few years later you only find fragments of your soulmate left. It will never be the same again. Thats how it is for me. Perhaps I had one a long time ago, over five years ago, but she isn't one anymore, and shes not ever going to be again. Oh well. Fuck it.