Another Li/Basil AIM log
This one is in narrative format.
Li has been sitting on a Convenient Nexus Couch for some time now, hunched over with his head resting on his knees as though very emotionally weary. He isn't particularly paying attention to anyone around him, and doesn't look as though he wants to be paid attention to.
Oh look! A Li! A depressed Li! Had Basil said something wrong when he didn't return Li's 'I love you' earlier? Surely that must be the problem. Only one way to solve it; hugs!
"Ohmygod!" Li jumps as Basil tries to touch him, and pushes Basil away - hard. He then withdraws, curling up into a little ball again. "Please don't touch me. I'm sorry."
Basil's eyes go wide as he tumbles to the ground, his jaw dropping somewhere to his knees. Hug... rejected? He thought they were together again. Had he royally screwed up this time? For good? The thought made hm want to die. "Li...."
Li looks similarly sad as he watches the expressions on Basil's face. "I'm sorry," he says again, "I can't let you touch me. ... It's nothing personal... "
"But why?" basil whimpers, his thumb coming up to his mouth. "Why not? I love you..."
"I can't tell you. ... Please go away." His eyes water as he says that last thing.
Shit. Is this how Li felt when he broke up with him? God, now not only did he feel like breaking down in tears, but he felt like the world's most insensitive bastard. How could he? How could he have done that to Li? "I thought you needed me."
"I do! But I shouldn't be with you. I can't." There is a long pause wherein Li just sits there as a few tears start to run down his cheeks. "I'm sorry."
Basil reaches out to wipe away the tears. He feels so responsible for this... All he wants to do is take Li in his arms and hold him for the rest of eternity. Maybe then everything would be all right.
Li slaps his hand away. "Stop it!"
Basil flinches, but brings his hand right back. He can't stop; he has to show Li how much he cares. "I won't," he whispers, and touches Li's face. "I know you love me, and I love you. Everything will be okay, I'll show you."
"No!" And his hand is slapped away again. "I can't let you touch me. We can't be together. I love you, but... I can't do this. It would be better for both of us if you just left me alone."
"No! Li please, I want to hold you! I'd do anything for you, just please... let me love you." he begs, knealing at Li's feet. He knows he's being slightly hypocritical, but with all the seperation and heartache... he knows he could fix everything if Li let him. He could be a good boyfriend this time, he knows it. All he needs is a chance...
"I can't! I can't, I can't..." He breaks down crying at this point, at a loss for anything else to do. He should just walk away, but where will he go? Li desperately needs someone right now, but there's no one he feels he can run to. "Please, someone help me..."
"Li, I'll help you," Basil murmurs, grabbing Li's hands and grasping them tightly. "I swear, I'll protect you from everything. I'll do what ever you need, just... don't make me leave you. Please. I'll be everything you need and more."
"No, stop it." Li tries to struggle away from Basil's grasp - he can't very well hit him with his hands immobilized like this. "I can't let you do that. I shouldn't need you, I shouldn't be with you, I shouldn't love you."
"Yes, you should!" Basil's practically screaming now, practically in hysterics. "I was wrong before, we should be together! I can be a good boyfriend, I swear I can, just give me one more chance! I won't hurt you anymore,I'll never sleep with anyone else, I'll never even look at another person like that so long as I live! I need you Li, I need you!"
"It's not you! It's nothing you did! I don't want to hurt you... it's just..." He trails off and tries to struggle away, muttering to himself, "Make it stop, make it stop..."
Li's hands are released, and before he cane react, Basil pulls him into an embrace, accompanied soon after by a deep kiss. He'll show Li how much he loves him... even if it kills him.
Li struggles as hard as he can, protesting all through the embrace and the kiss, but he's not very strong. His knife is in his pocket, though, and stabbing Basil won't hurt him permanently.
Tentatively, he reaches for it.
Basil doesn't notice through all the thrashing that's going on, evidently not thinking clearly as he pushes Li back against the couch. He'd make love to Li, that's what he'd do. No way Li could refuse him while he was busy moaning out his name.
A hand is slid over Li's chest and gently squeezes his groin.
Li pauses as he is pushed up against the couch, for once not struggling or trying to hit Basil as he registers what's happening now. He... he's going to be raped. Out of love. Why, this is just like--
NO. In one swift, determined motion, Li's knife is out of his pocket and then unsheathed. In another, it's flashing straight towards Basil's heart.
Basil doesn't even move as he sees the knife flash out. He could easily stop it if he wanted to, but he's in too much shock. Li would really kill him? Was he really hurting him that much? Then he deserved to die. He deserved to die and stay dead.
The knife plunges into Basil's chest, sending blood spilling all over the place. Li does not remove it immediately - if one stab does not kill Basil he is unsure if he has the courage for a second one. Nevertheless, he can't stop crying.
Basil instantly stops all movement, his face frozen in an expression of shock. He stays that way for a few moments, then coughs up blood, ducking his chin so as not to get it on Li's face. He's able to stay for a up for a second longer, then he collapses on Li's chest, dead.
Li removes the knife, but continues to lie there for a few more moments, just trying to calm down. What now, what now? He isn't sure, so he's just going to lie there even though he knows that Basil will wake up in a few minutes.
Basil lies there quietly for a few minutes, the bleeding of chest slowing and eventually stopping as his body repairs itself.
Oh, shit! Li notices this. Well, it's time to bolt, before they have a repeat of that. He gently picks Basil's head up, sits up himself, and replaces it on the couch.
Basil gasps as he starts breathing again, and his eyes flutter close. It'll be a few minutes before he wakes up completely, but he's alive now, and he's mind is in turmoil as it goes over what just happened.
Cong Li Chang: Li lingers for a second, but then gets up from the couch and starts to walk off.
"This is not right," he has to remind himself.
Basil bolts up as Li walks away, gasping and glancing around wildly. Li... where is.... there! "Li, come back!" he shouts, leaning over the arm of the couch. "Please, let me explain-!"
"Th-there is no excuse," he stutters. But he stops and turns around for some reason.
"I just wanted you to be happy...."
Li is terminally confused, and puts his hands on the sides of his head as though in some kind of pain. He looks frantic, searching for an answer, an explanation for all of these seemingly random events that are just doing nothing but hurting him.
"I don't understand."
"I thought if I made love you you, you'd stop trying to get away from me and let me love you again. That's all I want. You make me feel whole. I didn't realize it until now, but it's true. I wouldn't know what to do with myself without you, I need you here with me. I'm lost without you."
"I... what? Oh. I thought you were raping me."
"Well, I-!" Truth was, Basil was well aware of what he was doing. Not that he wanted to admit it. "I wouldn't say that...."
Those words are a little too familiar. "Nonono, I'm not going to fall into that trap again..."
He didn't mean it, honest! "Li..."
"What?"
"Please.... I'm sorry... I wasn't thinking. I just want to be with you."
And these words are unfamiliar. Li doesn't know how to take them in context. "I'm lost."
"Let me help you... let me be your light. I can show you the way."
"Nonononono. That's not right." He backs away.
"Not right?" Basil is confused. "Why wouldn it be wrong from me to want to help you?"
"Because, because... of what you just did. And other things."
"I wasn't thinking. I never should've done that. I'm sorry."
Something else unfamiliar. Li isn't sure why not to accept, so he does. "It's okay."
Basil is stunned. After all the fighting, and Li suddenly just accepts? "Can I hug you?"
"N-no. I can't allow that." Li wraps his arms around himself, as though to try and hold himself together.
Sigh. Of course not. He should've known. "Okay..."
"I'm sorry." He bows his head.
"It's okay..." But damned is he going to feel so messed up for a while. "I should go... Before I try to hurt you again."
"Maybe," he whispers. Then, turns to leave. "It's nothing personal."
"I know...." Doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Slowly he stnads and walks away, looking over his shoulder the entire way.
Li does not look back.
Li has been sitting on a Convenient Nexus Couch for some time now, hunched over with his head resting on his knees as though very emotionally weary. He isn't particularly paying attention to anyone around him, and doesn't look as though he wants to be paid attention to.
Oh look! A Li! A depressed Li! Had Basil said something wrong when he didn't return Li's 'I love you' earlier? Surely that must be the problem. Only one way to solve it; hugs!
"Ohmygod!" Li jumps as Basil tries to touch him, and pushes Basil away - hard. He then withdraws, curling up into a little ball again. "Please don't touch me. I'm sorry."
Basil's eyes go wide as he tumbles to the ground, his jaw dropping somewhere to his knees. Hug... rejected? He thought they were together again. Had he royally screwed up this time? For good? The thought made hm want to die. "Li...."
Li looks similarly sad as he watches the expressions on Basil's face. "I'm sorry," he says again, "I can't let you touch me. ... It's nothing personal... "
"But why?" basil whimpers, his thumb coming up to his mouth. "Why not? I love you..."
"I can't tell you. ... Please go away." His eyes water as he says that last thing.
Shit. Is this how Li felt when he broke up with him? God, now not only did he feel like breaking down in tears, but he felt like the world's most insensitive bastard. How could he? How could he have done that to Li? "I thought you needed me."
"I do! But I shouldn't be with you. I can't." There is a long pause wherein Li just sits there as a few tears start to run down his cheeks. "I'm sorry."
Basil reaches out to wipe away the tears. He feels so responsible for this... All he wants to do is take Li in his arms and hold him for the rest of eternity. Maybe then everything would be all right.
Li slaps his hand away. "Stop it!"
Basil flinches, but brings his hand right back. He can't stop; he has to show Li how much he cares. "I won't," he whispers, and touches Li's face. "I know you love me, and I love you. Everything will be okay, I'll show you."
"No!" And his hand is slapped away again. "I can't let you touch me. We can't be together. I love you, but... I can't do this. It would be better for both of us if you just left me alone."
"No! Li please, I want to hold you! I'd do anything for you, just please... let me love you." he begs, knealing at Li's feet. He knows he's being slightly hypocritical, but with all the seperation and heartache... he knows he could fix everything if Li let him. He could be a good boyfriend this time, he knows it. All he needs is a chance...
"I can't! I can't, I can't..." He breaks down crying at this point, at a loss for anything else to do. He should just walk away, but where will he go? Li desperately needs someone right now, but there's no one he feels he can run to. "Please, someone help me..."
"Li, I'll help you," Basil murmurs, grabbing Li's hands and grasping them tightly. "I swear, I'll protect you from everything. I'll do what ever you need, just... don't make me leave you. Please. I'll be everything you need and more."
"No, stop it." Li tries to struggle away from Basil's grasp - he can't very well hit him with his hands immobilized like this. "I can't let you do that. I shouldn't need you, I shouldn't be with you, I shouldn't love you."
"Yes, you should!" Basil's practically screaming now, practically in hysterics. "I was wrong before, we should be together! I can be a good boyfriend, I swear I can, just give me one more chance! I won't hurt you anymore,I'll never sleep with anyone else, I'll never even look at another person like that so long as I live! I need you Li, I need you!"
"It's not you! It's nothing you did! I don't want to hurt you... it's just..." He trails off and tries to struggle away, muttering to himself, "Make it stop, make it stop..."
Li's hands are released, and before he cane react, Basil pulls him into an embrace, accompanied soon after by a deep kiss. He'll show Li how much he loves him... even if it kills him.
Li struggles as hard as he can, protesting all through the embrace and the kiss, but he's not very strong. His knife is in his pocket, though, and stabbing Basil won't hurt him permanently.
Tentatively, he reaches for it.
Basil doesn't notice through all the thrashing that's going on, evidently not thinking clearly as he pushes Li back against the couch. He'd make love to Li, that's what he'd do. No way Li could refuse him while he was busy moaning out his name.
A hand is slid over Li's chest and gently squeezes his groin.
Li pauses as he is pushed up against the couch, for once not struggling or trying to hit Basil as he registers what's happening now. He... he's going to be raped. Out of love. Why, this is just like--
NO. In one swift, determined motion, Li's knife is out of his pocket and then unsheathed. In another, it's flashing straight towards Basil's heart.
Basil doesn't even move as he sees the knife flash out. He could easily stop it if he wanted to, but he's in too much shock. Li would really kill him? Was he really hurting him that much? Then he deserved to die. He deserved to die and stay dead.
The knife plunges into Basil's chest, sending blood spilling all over the place. Li does not remove it immediately - if one stab does not kill Basil he is unsure if he has the courage for a second one. Nevertheless, he can't stop crying.
Basil instantly stops all movement, his face frozen in an expression of shock. He stays that way for a few moments, then coughs up blood, ducking his chin so as not to get it on Li's face. He's able to stay for a up for a second longer, then he collapses on Li's chest, dead.
Li removes the knife, but continues to lie there for a few more moments, just trying to calm down. What now, what now? He isn't sure, so he's just going to lie there even though he knows that Basil will wake up in a few minutes.
Basil lies there quietly for a few minutes, the bleeding of chest slowing and eventually stopping as his body repairs itself.
Oh, shit! Li notices this. Well, it's time to bolt, before they have a repeat of that. He gently picks Basil's head up, sits up himself, and replaces it on the couch.
Basil gasps as he starts breathing again, and his eyes flutter close. It'll be a few minutes before he wakes up completely, but he's alive now, and he's mind is in turmoil as it goes over what just happened.
Cong Li Chang: Li lingers for a second, but then gets up from the couch and starts to walk off.
"This is not right," he has to remind himself.
Basil bolts up as Li walks away, gasping and glancing around wildly. Li... where is.... there! "Li, come back!" he shouts, leaning over the arm of the couch. "Please, let me explain-!"
"Th-there is no excuse," he stutters. But he stops and turns around for some reason.
"I just wanted you to be happy...."
Li is terminally confused, and puts his hands on the sides of his head as though in some kind of pain. He looks frantic, searching for an answer, an explanation for all of these seemingly random events that are just doing nothing but hurting him.
"I don't understand."
"I thought if I made love you you, you'd stop trying to get away from me and let me love you again. That's all I want. You make me feel whole. I didn't realize it until now, but it's true. I wouldn't know what to do with myself without you, I need you here with me. I'm lost without you."
"I... what? Oh. I thought you were raping me."
"Well, I-!" Truth was, Basil was well aware of what he was doing. Not that he wanted to admit it. "I wouldn't say that...."
Those words are a little too familiar. "Nonono, I'm not going to fall into that trap again..."
He didn't mean it, honest! "Li..."
"What?"
"Please.... I'm sorry... I wasn't thinking. I just want to be with you."
And these words are unfamiliar. Li doesn't know how to take them in context. "I'm lost."
"Let me help you... let me be your light. I can show you the way."
"Nonononono. That's not right." He backs away.
"Not right?" Basil is confused. "Why wouldn it be wrong from me to want to help you?"
"Because, because... of what you just did. And other things."
"I wasn't thinking. I never should've done that. I'm sorry."
Something else unfamiliar. Li isn't sure why not to accept, so he does. "It's okay."
Basil is stunned. After all the fighting, and Li suddenly just accepts? "Can I hug you?"
"N-no. I can't allow that." Li wraps his arms around himself, as though to try and hold himself together.
Sigh. Of course not. He should've known. "Okay..."
"I'm sorry." He bows his head.
"It's okay..." But damned is he going to feel so messed up for a while. "I should go... Before I try to hurt you again."
"Maybe," he whispers. Then, turns to leave. "It's nothing personal."
"I know...." Doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Slowly he stnads and walks away, looking over his shoulder the entire way.
Li does not look back.