Free will and some stuff. Such as a side of chips and/or solitude. Mm, chips...
[this entry is locked to people who give a crap. If your pup has a reason to care about whether Li is Isamu's sex slave has free will and wants to be alone all the time, then they can read this. Otherwise, no.]
- Blew up the Nexus. Then subsequently decided to join Musubi.
- As a side note, I apologise for blowing things up. Won't be doing that again. Promise.
- Back to the Musubi thing.
See, there's a lot of different kinds of solitude. At least, in my way of thinking. There's the kind of solitude where you sit around all alone, or with people that you are ignoring. And then there's the kind where all the world's a stage, everyone else is the players, and you are the audience. An audience who occasionally shouts things at the actors.
But only because you are a nosy bastard. And you can't escape people because you attend a boarding school.
Needless to say, that's more or less my type of solitude. People are interesting purely on an informational level. I could learn about other places and things from reading a lot, but that isn't quite the same. You can't mess around with words on a page or see their reactions when you point and laugh at how crazy they are. So, the world is not only a stage, it is a toy. A very fun toy that I can choose to stop playing with if it gets annoying.
But if it all disappeared, would I get bored? Or would I find other, non-people-involving toys to amuse myself with? I like to think that it would be the latter, but then of course I'm subject to some bias. Nobody likes to admit that they're wrong.
- Also: free will. In aligning with Musubi I became Isamu's servant and now have to do whatever he says. Not that I have a problem with this, mind you - which leads me to wonder how one tells if one no longer has free will. Is it supposed to feel like willful submission? Because it certainly feels as though I'm consciously deciding that I'd rather obey than not, even though looking back on it I kind of wonder why I thought that.
Weirdest of all is the fact that none of this really bothers me as anything more than an intellectual question. I always thought I'd have some sort of problem with the possibility that I'm not completely in control of my actions, but in reality? I'm perfectly fine with it!
- In fact, am as happy as have ever been, but this is probably because I don't care anymore what other people think.
- Blew up the Nexus. Then subsequently decided to join Musubi.
- As a side note, I apologise for blowing things up. Won't be doing that again. Promise.
- Back to the Musubi thing.
See, there's a lot of different kinds of solitude. At least, in my way of thinking. There's the kind of solitude where you sit around all alone, or with people that you are ignoring. And then there's the kind where all the world's a stage, everyone else is the players, and you are the audience. An audience who occasionally shouts things at the actors.
But only because you are a nosy bastard. And you can't escape people because you attend a boarding school.
Needless to say, that's more or less my type of solitude. People are interesting purely on an informational level. I could learn about other places and things from reading a lot, but that isn't quite the same. You can't mess around with words on a page or see their reactions when you point and laugh at how crazy they are. So, the world is not only a stage, it is a toy. A very fun toy that I can choose to stop playing with if it gets annoying.
But if it all disappeared, would I get bored? Or would I find other, non-people-involving toys to amuse myself with? I like to think that it would be the latter, but then of course I'm subject to some bias. Nobody likes to admit that they're wrong.
- Also: free will. In aligning with Musubi I became Isamu's servant and now have to do whatever he says. Not that I have a problem with this, mind you - which leads me to wonder how one tells if one no longer has free will. Is it supposed to feel like willful submission? Because it certainly feels as though I'm consciously deciding that I'd rather obey than not, even though looking back on it I kind of wonder why I thought that.
Weirdest of all is the fact that none of this really bothers me as anything more than an intellectual question. I always thought I'd have some sort of problem with the possibility that I'm not completely in control of my actions, but in reality? I'm perfectly fine with it!
- In fact, am as happy as have ever been, but this is probably because I don't care anymore what other people think.