sister high
Riding a nice little high this afternoon. I'm feeling love and a calm strength at the moment. I've got people in my life that I know care about me. I thank them for their love. Another piece that's essential but not as consistently there is my sensing my own presence. But I'm feeling it now, in a split personality sort of way. She's me, but she's so much cooler than me. She's calm, she's strong, she's not chained by fears like I am, she loves. There's so much of her this afternoon that she surrounds me. The sense of urgency, the need to feel safe, the chaotic feeling that things are not right, the need to muffle all of these feelings--not with me at the moment. She feels like a beautiful older sister that I admire (but never had). I wish she were always with me.