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I've done all my assistantship work. Don't have plans in the next couple hours. I have no excuse not to work on important things like: my thesis, job/volunteer applications, studying for the MN driver's written test to save money on car insurance, research loan consolidation programs... Why is it that I shy away from doing things that are very important to do? I get anxious, almost into a panic, when I've run out of excuses, and my real responsibilities are staring me in the face. What's wrong with me?! This feeling is so uncomfortable. My chest feels tensed up and my breathing has become shallow. I'd rather drive home and clean my room right now! And I never want to clean my room! I am feeling so unsafe at the moment. Need to scramble and look for my next excuse! Feeling bad that I am a coward.