a ending fitting for the start
So things between me and Sarah are officially over. I'm going to sound dumb, but I really love her. I'm not retarded though, I know she's completely used me to make her ex (now current, again) boyfriend jealous. He totally flipped when he saw me with her at a party the other night. And I really mean this, I'm not going to lie to myself by writing bullshit in this diary, I did not provoke him at all at as I walked out. I litterally glanced at him and he took offence to it and started yelling at me and slamming the door in my face. And all this horse shit about I smiled and winked at him, so said by people standing around him, they're trying to force me away from Sarah. I know it.
In my life now, I really don't need this teenage melodrama. I'm coming up 20 and I'm looking to start my life.. and really they're just kids. They're looking for everything to stay the same and do the same dumb shit every night.. sitting outside the Lion getting drunk in alleys is something I've done, but I'm over all that.
The past few months Sarah has been in my life have been hectic and cool at the same time, but I am quite glad things can go back to a sense of normality. No more sneaking around. No more feeling guilty. No more wondering where she is and why she isn't talking to me.
I can't lie and say I didn't see this coming. Since Reading, I've never felt such a distance between me and her. I've seen her twice and both times I've felt a really weird uneasiness that wasn't there before.
I can't believe though she's accused me of being this "someone else" at the party. I don't rememember telling her to fuck off.. Probably because I didn't. I was barely even drunk and I would never say that to her in any seriousness. I definately did not provoke Dom. So I don't know what she's talking about. Sounds like a feeble attempt at blaming me for everything.
As upset I am about all this. I'm actually quite glad it's over.
And today I will drink heartily with true best friends whilst watching the Carolina/Atlanta game.
I have had it with girls for now.
In my life now, I really don't need this teenage melodrama. I'm coming up 20 and I'm looking to start my life.. and really they're just kids. They're looking for everything to stay the same and do the same dumb shit every night.. sitting outside the Lion getting drunk in alleys is something I've done, but I'm over all that.
The past few months Sarah has been in my life have been hectic and cool at the same time, but I am quite glad things can go back to a sense of normality. No more sneaking around. No more feeling guilty. No more wondering where she is and why she isn't talking to me.
I can't lie and say I didn't see this coming. Since Reading, I've never felt such a distance between me and her. I've seen her twice and both times I've felt a really weird uneasiness that wasn't there before.
I can't believe though she's accused me of being this "someone else" at the party. I don't rememember telling her to fuck off.. Probably because I didn't. I was barely even drunk and I would never say that to her in any seriousness. I definately did not provoke Dom. So I don't know what she's talking about. Sounds like a feeble attempt at blaming me for everything.
As upset I am about all this. I'm actually quite glad it's over.
And today I will drink heartily with true best friends whilst watching the Carolina/Atlanta game.
I have had it with girls for now.