Unloveable?
Hey everybody, well nevermind I guess nobody ever really reads this so I guess this is just for me! So I will pretend I am talking to someone who cares and understands!
I know this guy, he is really sweet, really nice, and REALLY funny. He is so awesome (from my point of view anyway) but hes so much more than those three things, especially to me! I like him soooo much but I know he doesn't like me. It's that feeling of standing/sitting next to someone you love knowing they don't feel the same way about you. It's horrible and at least before a about a week ago I could have HOPE. Hope that maybe I might have the slimest chance, even if deep down inside I know I didn't. Up until about a week ago I still had that wonderful thing called hope but then I lost it when I found out that...... he only dates christian girls. Does that make me unloveable? Does that make me horrible? I'm not christian because of some past bad experiences and its not like I'm part of some really wierd religion or anything. I'm not ANY religion. I'm just me...Why should something so miniscule effect something so large? Just because I'm not a christian doesn't mean I'm a bad person... does it? It's like I'm some sort of maniac who believes in mass murder and all that crap! I'm just a person that doens't go to a building to channel my beliefs. So am I wrong? Am I horrible? Am I unloveable? Or is it just ME in general that no body seems to like? I have plenty of friends and I'm not a mean person! Nobody likes me other than a friend... so what's wrong with me? And I guess since nobody reads this I can tell myself his name. His name is Dennis and he means the world to me.
~C.C.~