Rekindled
Well I've totally unlink everything leading to this journal. However the smart people will probably try to get here if they really want to realize it. Of course it's not EXACTLY like my Xanga, it has an underscore! yaaaaaaay... ... Yeah so now I'm feeling really sad. You know why? Well, I spent the rest of the day with Duke and Mikey after Kyokai. We played DDR and looked at some of my animations. Later I took Mikey home and me and Duke got some Panda Express. It was pretty funny cause we forgot our money to actually buy the panda! After all that was settled we watched DNAngel for a bit then listened to my reading with Susan. Then I took him home. We were silent a greater part of the ride and when we got near his house he said, "Don't turn." and I'm just like...uhhh okay so I kept on driving. He said afterwards, "I just want to keep going." And I was like...oooh cause Inner Universe just came on and he liked that song so that's probably why. So we kept on listening/singing and then Heaven (candlight remix) got on. It's one of my favorites so naturally I was singing it. But later on down the road I started to hear him sing it, it made me really happy. When we turned on the road perpendicular to 2040, it all started to have a weird effect on me. I felt like crying and I was just about to. By now I could really hear him singing...the whole day reminded me of my feelings...of how I keep trying to tell myself. He's just a friend, he's just your best friend. So we turned onto his street, and the song starts to end...I stop at his house and look to him...he looks to me and I smile...he smiles and says something about see you or I dunno I was stuck in my own world. I longed to hug him...to say goodbye...I should of got out of that car and run to him. But I didn't...because I'm stupid because of that stupid little voice, "he's just a friend, you can't think of him that way." I mentally hit myself the rest of the way home while I repeated Heaven again. And just what do you know...when I turn off my away, he had said..."Duke's Random Thought: ....." Crap I forgot what he said but he said something about what if green eye's hadn't had come. What does that mean??? Does that mean he likes me back????!! WHAT DOES IT MEAN!! DUKE I STILL LIKE YOU DAMN IT....damn it.....-cries- Why do I have to ruin everything? WHY...why...I tried to message him...but I couldn't...Someone shoot me.