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... and the writing muse has left
and there's massive thunderstorm warning for tonight, meaning the likelihood of the stargazing happening is getting slimmer and slimmer by the minute. my partner for the organizing is on a hike today. meaning he's probably getting soaked to the skin. if it's actually raining, that is, which i don't know. i'm in the union wondering what i can do to get my muse back. not go outside, because the temp is like 86 degrees out, and it's muggy. i don't mind the heat so much, it's the mugginess that gets to me.
grrrrrrrrrrrrr all i need to do is BS a nice little paper. i was able to BS 40 pages on myself. if i can do that, i should be able to BS 30 pages on the integration of social and technological solutions to disabilities with text boxes and pictures to take up space.
so it looks like i should be able to get a copy of windows vista ultimate out of rpi. thoughts? should i? i've got a T60 to run it on, and i was planning on re-imaging the darn thing anyway.
why oh why has the writing bug stopped biting? i'm ignoring headaches, sunburns, everything. i've eating until i'm full. indeed, i've probably eaten too much with too little exercise and too little to drink, but at this point i just want the bug to bite again.
perhaps something is on my mind? something is always on my mind. currently it is the feeling that i'm going to miss everyone leaving because i'm too busy writing. it's a serious fear!
i just want to be held, most of all. cuddled and comforted, told that it's ok to be vulnerable, it's safe. i don't feel safe being vulnerable. so i simply am not vulnerable. ha. what a lark. i'm such a janis - two faced. one is the confident face. i am confident because i must be, there is no other way for me to be. the other is the vulnerable face. week, wants to be held and comforted. i want to be told that it's ok. everything will be ok. i haven't messed my life up, even if my thesis isn't 30 pages long, it will still be ok. i need someone to tell me that being perfect and perfectionism are not the same. i'm soo confused.
and there's massive thunderstorm warning for tonight, meaning the likelihood of the stargazing happening is getting slimmer and slimmer by the minute. my partner for the organizing is on a hike today. meaning he's probably getting soaked to the skin. if it's actually raining, that is, which i don't know. i'm in the union wondering what i can do to get my muse back. not go outside, because the temp is like 86 degrees out, and it's muggy. i don't mind the heat so much, it's the mugginess that gets to me.
grrrrrrrrrrrrr all i need to do is BS a nice little paper. i was able to BS 40 pages on myself. if i can do that, i should be able to BS 30 pages on the integration of social and technological solutions to disabilities with text boxes and pictures to take up space.
so it looks like i should be able to get a copy of windows vista ultimate out of rpi. thoughts? should i? i've got a T60 to run it on, and i was planning on re-imaging the darn thing anyway.
why oh why has the writing bug stopped biting? i'm ignoring headaches, sunburns, everything. i've eating until i'm full. indeed, i've probably eaten too much with too little exercise and too little to drink, but at this point i just want the bug to bite again.
perhaps something is on my mind? something is always on my mind. currently it is the feeling that i'm going to miss everyone leaving because i'm too busy writing. it's a serious fear!
i just want to be held, most of all. cuddled and comforted, told that it's ok to be vulnerable, it's safe. i don't feel safe being vulnerable. so i simply am not vulnerable. ha. what a lark. i'm such a janis - two faced. one is the confident face. i am confident because i must be, there is no other way for me to be. the other is the vulnerable face. week, wants to be held and comforted. i want to be told that it's ok. everything will be ok. i haven't messed my life up, even if my thesis isn't 30 pages long, it will still be ok. i need someone to tell me that being perfect and perfectionism are not the same. i'm soo confused.