the world seems not the same, though i know nothing has changed
His voice keeps echoing in my head. And I still have the hope that he will change his mind. I need to forget about that, because there is a good chance it won't happen.
Why did I let him get so close? I didn't realize how much control he has (had) until this week. I should have known this was coming. I did know. I just hoped I was wrong and over thinking. But last night, after he walked out with me, I knew there really was something wrong. And on the phone, it was not the way it used to be. But today. I really had thought I would have been able to convince him to try. Apparently not.
I'm not sure if it hurts more than not knowing. I can't judge such high intensities
Why did I let him get so close? I didn't realize how much control he has (had) until this week. I should have known this was coming. I did know. I just hoped I was wrong and over thinking. But last night, after he walked out with me, I knew there really was something wrong. And on the phone, it was not the way it used to be. But today. I really had thought I would have been able to convince him to try. Apparently not.
I'm not sure if it hurts more than not knowing. I can't judge such high intensities