Law is stifling my growth. Seriously. Right now I feel like I've made the worst choice I could have made. I would have been better off with a BA in Sociology or something like that ( Read more... )

I miss how he used to secretly take my mobile and change the sliding tones and the tone I hear when I receive a message. It used to be so surprising and funny. 

It's over over over over over.

I CANNOT be his girlfriend again. It goes against everything. And I won't be.

But I love him so much. I really really do. I hugged him today and held him close and he is so soft and protective and manly and his arms consume me and I feel at home.

It's killing him and me.

I can't let myself get too emotional as usual, I ( Read more... )

I'm afraid to meet Alan tomorrow... I'm afraid he'll give me one of his time-stopping kisses and my knees will wobble and I won't be able to resist.

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I need to be strong-willed and decisive. I'm breaking up with him. Yes, I am. No more Claire-and-Alan. No more special moments and one-of-a-kind connections with each other. No more.

Alan and I didn't meet today because he's really sick. I feel so guilty about this now. I've decided well and truly that I want us to break up. It definitely has no future. Yes yes, I'm going to miss him like crazy and I'm mostly going to miss the little things like holding hands and hugging him and the sexy stuff and snuggling up together in his ( Read more... )

I think the break-up is actually going to take place.
We're meeting tomorrow to talk.
I care for him so much, but whereas I feel like I've grown so much these past two years, I don't see him as having grown at all. He's only changed a bit as a person because he's been my boyfriend.
He's not right for me.
I still love him, I do. The problem is that ( Read more... )

By the way, Alan and I are really 'on the decline', if you get my drift. The relationship is more or less over. It's been two whole years. Well, practically over two years if you count the three months we weren't together last year (in which I was still devoted to him, nonetheless). In about a week the relationship will/would be officially two ( Read more... )

Yesterday night was the best night I've had in MONTHS. All thanks to lovely Marouska, Chantelle and Sangriaaaa =D ( Read more... )

I love my laptop. It's so convenient. The model is Fujitsu-Siemens Amilo Pro V3505 (details especially for Paul, pardon my lack of techno-geekiness) =)
It has an Intel Core 2 Duo Processor T5200 (1.66GHz) Processor with 1GB of RAM and an 80GB HDD. The screen is 15.4". Battery life is really good as well.


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I'm feeling better, yay! However, my throat is still really sore, and my neck is very stiff and painful ( Read more... )